limited time | ross lynch

angel

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My heart raced faster than in ever has before. Losing another person in my life was not an option. In fact, if it did happen, it might kill me before my cancer does. Losing people has put too much pain on my heart, and it feels as if it might burst.

He was silent, but not still. His hand stroked my hair and he just started off into space, breathing heavily and huskily. I was nervous, but anger built up inside of me, and I didn't quite know why. But not only was my heart about to burst, my emotions were too. They flew right out of my mouth at Ross.

"See, this is why I didn't want to fucking tell you," I sneered, backing out of his embrace.

He paused, looking at me puzzled. He shook his head, causing his hair to shake as he took my hand firmly in his.

"Mia-"

"Save it. You're just going to leave me like everyone else does. I know the drill. Goodbye, Ross," I tore my hand out of his grip and began walking in the direction toward my house.

He called my name out again, running in front of me and stopping me in my tracks. He looked me straight in the eyes. I could tell, he felt sorry for me. His eyes were soft and watery, almost like he would cry at any second. This isn't what I wanted.

"No, Mia, I'm not going to leave you. I'm never going to leave you," he pulled me in for another hug. I hesitated. "Listen, I'm so sorry Mia, you don't deserve this horrible thing. I'm so, so sorry."

"Great, so now you feel pity for me. This isn't what I wanted Ross!" I coughed out.

He seemed shocked and surprised. I honestly feel bad for treating him so poorly, but how would you feel? You've been left or pitied for most of your life and that's all you remember. All you hear everyday is that doctor with the beard telling you he's sorry, and that 'your daughter is diagnosed with leukemia.' All you can see is yourself sitting in that hospital bed most of your life, praying to God that he takes away this illness. But it never happened. I'm stuck.

Ross was honestly a sweet guy, and he deserved way better than the way I was treating him. I was so upset that he might be like everybody else. But that's the thing. Ross isn't like everybody else. Everybody else would've left by now, but not Ross. He stood here, hugging me, making sure I was ok. Now what kind of person am I to yell and scream at him?

"I-I'm sorry. Never mind," I turned away.

His arms wrapped around my fragile body from behind. This all over again. I melted into him. His arms felt safe, and I didn't want to leave. I've never felt so secure with someone.

I never thought I'd tell Ross about my disease so early. We'd just met yesterday, and he already knows. He already knows. But he was making me feel good about telling him. I wasn't regretting it, which was unusual.

"Mia," he whispered softly.

I looked him in the eyes. They were red and puffy as his tear slipped off his chin. My face fell. I wiped under his eyes and his cheeks with my hands. I wrapped my arms quickly around his neck, embracing him. We've hugged so many times in the past five minutes.

"Don't cry Ross, please don't cry. It hurts me to see you cry."

I heard him sniffle and squeeze me tighter. After he'd let go of my body, we looked at each other. His hazel orbs stared into my brown ones and made me focus on them. His eyes were so beautiful. So so beautiful. I could stare into them for hours.

"Listen to me. I'm always gonna be here for you, Mia. I'll always support you, and be by your side, no matter what. Cancer fucking sucks, baby," he growled.

My stomach filled with tons of butterflies. Not only was those few sentences so sweet, but the fact that he called me baby, killed me. Am I falling for this kid? I wish I wasn't, but I cannot hide from the truth. My emotions were taking over.

"Thank you. That really means a lot to me. You're my angel from heaven," I giggled, looking down at my feet. I kicked at the dirt beneath me.

"That was so cute, holy shit," I heard him chuckle. "You're my angel too."

I smiled widely at him and blushed, my cheeks feeling hot. The butterflies increased and I felt so happy in the moment. I didn't realize anything around us. It was just me and him.

I liked it that way. I want it to be me and him forever.