Trust Me

Chapter 10: I'm back?

I was ridding at the chopper absentmindedly. The moment I step in here, a lot of thoughts started peaking me.

Where will I go after escaping? Will I'm going to return home?

Would my parents still accept me?

Hah. Nonsense question. How would I think they'll accept me again after I just choose Chris over all. After they had just abandoned me and threw me away like a trash?

The chopper started to fly in the air. It started to took its way.

Peter was operating the chopper seriously. Like he really wanted our trip to flow smoothly. No unanticipated events, no hassle.

Like he really wants to land safely.

At that moment, I feel valued somehow. That someone was carefully driving because of me.

The trip went on so fast. Like it was flying miles per hour. And the thought that it was going too fast, makes me feel. . . nervous.

Maybe, its a bit weird but I wish this trip won't end. Yeah, ridiculous isn't it? I was ridding this chopper but I don't really want to land. I don't really want to reach my destination. To wherever it was.

If only, this trip could last forever.

I now knew why some people are afraid of moving forward, taking another step in their life. Its not being coward nor stupid. Its just that, they are afraid of the responsibilities they have to take when they get there. Same as me, I'm afraid of the life I'm returning at. I'm afraid of facing my family who had just abandoned me.

I'm afraid of the rejections I might get. The critisisms and the unjust judgement the people might think of me.

I'mafraid that I have to come back to my screwed up life.

I'm afraid.

I'm afraid.

But a part of my mind asks me, 'Why did you follow his command, then?'

That thought stops me from thinking.

"Don't think too much, Charm." my pilot said.

"This wasn't an easy move for me, Pete." I answered.

He laugh shortly. "This wasn't an easy move for Steph either."

I thought there was a hint of joke in his voice. But there isn't. His statement is like a matter of fact. He's serious.

"I still don't get the point why it ended up like this." I muttered.

"Same here. I don't really know what Stephen is thinking right now." he answered without looking back at me. He was still busy being my pilot.

"Stephen is really hard to read." I declared. Yeah, that's proven and tested. He has the most difficult mind patterns ever. I can't follow his mind. I can't determine his thoughts.

"Yeah. He really was."

"Uhh. Pete?"

"Uh-oh. I can't, Charm. I know there are a lot of questions you want to ask me about Steph. I'm sorry, but I can't answer them." he clarified.

Ofcourse, he knows it. Just listening to my voice's tone already emphasize that I'm about to start peaking him.

"Is he your boss or something?"

But since I am Charm, I still continue to ask. It doesn't matter if he didn't want to answer then don't. But I'm still hoping he'll answer some.

"No. He isn't."