Surrender To You

Simula

REMAINDER: SPG!! May mga mababasa kayong maaring hindi kaaya aya sa pandinig at madalas ay may mura. Word of expression ganern.

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Simula

"Cheers!" We cheered as we banged our shot of vodka to each other's glass.

I drink the vodka as if it's a water. My face got crumpled as it make a straight line through my throat. My friends just laugh at me because of my face. God! I'm not use to this! I prefer drinking wine than this!

"I hate you!" I said as they continue to laugh at me. How sweet of them!

"Ohh.. We love you too Honey." Brenize muttered as she continue to laugh.

My eyes rolled ceiling ward. Tamara on the other side starting to pour another vodka in our shot glass. My eyes widened! I'm never been good with too much alcohol!

"Hey! Tam! I think three shots is enough for me." I said as I stop her from pouring the vodka to my shot glass.

She just rolled her eyes. "Oh shut up Ara. Don't be such a kill joy!" She shoo my hand as she pour the vodka to my glass. Dammit! Why do I have such a nice friends?!

"To our friend who's now got her senses! Ara! Cheers!" Tamara said as she raise her shot of vodka. So as Brenize and I just did the same rolling my eyes ceiling ward and we bang our shot to each other.

After a very long time ay ngayon na lang ulit kami nagkita kita. And what really funny is ngayon lang kami nagkita because of me, now that I got feed up of my life  ay mag se-celebrate daw kami for i already know my worth, how nice of them!

I just got back from New York, i've been here for two weeks. To free myself. To forget  the pain that's been inflected in me cause God! It's killing me every time I remember the reason of my misery. The hell I curse them to death.

And being away is my option dahil kung hindi ako lalayo ay baka hindi ako maka pag pigil at baka mapatay ko sila. I loath them to hell! They're immoral!

I won't forget that night, that hurtful night seeing my husband on top of my fucking sister both naked, fucking each other break the whole lot of me! And god! Oh god! I see hell that time! Shit! It hurts!

At that I just want to wreck their necks! Ang sakit na your doing all your best for your marriage to work out but the hell with this? Ang maabutan ko pa ay ang kahangalan nila! In our fucking bed fucking each other! Hindi man lang sila nahiya! And fuck for my sister for being a whore! I can't...

Huminga ako ng malalim to calm myself cause damn! Any minute now I want to burst out my anger and damn my tears!  Remembering it all damn! Ang sakit!

I hold my tears ngayon na aalala ko na naman all i want to do is to cry but I should not. I should not let them tear me apart. Again! Cause I have enough! Fuck this life! I can't hold it I felt a tear escape from my eyes. Tangina! Para ako pinapatay!

Kahit ilang beses ko siguro pigilan may lalabas at lalabas parin. I just can't understand kung bakit nila na gawa 'yon. I have been good, too good I already gave the whole lot of me.

"Hey, stop Ara. You don't deserve him, okay? Don't let him bring you down! Because God know how douchebag he is! And for your sister fuck her to hell!" Brenize said as she shake me to my senses.

I let out a fake smile. I just can't forget about it so easily. Hindi ganoon kadali 'yon. She rolled her eyes and wipe my tears.

"I can't help it. Masakit pa you know!" I said to loosen the tension.