" phriendship "

part one: " found "

Phil's p.o.v:
 
Dear journal,
This is a big moment for me.
Honestly.
I am lying to everyone! This.feels.so.good!
I have always been "mommy's boy" or " goody little tooshoes "
I mean,
Golly I just made a very ace video today  and I've already got 10 views!
( its only been 12 minutes )
Gosh I dont ever expect to be a star but, I  thought this might be a great way to make friends! You know?-

* knock knock *

" Philip, honey, who were you talking to a minute ago " my mom asks suspiciously.

" myself mum! Now please leave me alone im trying to write in ma journal" I yell

" sorry phil I will " she says in the motherly/worried voice she has.

" bye mum" I say sweetly

" oh and phil dinner is in 30'! " my mum bellowed through the door

" im not hungry! " I yell again. It was only 3'o'clock in the afternoon.

I Shut my journal and check my youtube.
" pinknpretty has commented on your video: die you emo fag "

Oh..." I- im not gay... " I whisper under my breath.  a tear drips down my face. One after another. 

- flash backs -

" phel youra emo faggut "
the boy says as he kicks me again in the stomach.
Blood spits out of my mouth. I groan in pain, my almost  lifeless body sprawled across the dirty ground.

" haha go'ter hell phel "
another boy says and then the three boys walk out behind the barn were they had " punished " me. I wasn't gay. I promise! But everyone thought I was.. 

- flash back stops -

I wake up at 10'o'clock p.m.
I had been asleep since 5 p.m.

I get up off the floor, wincing in pain. I look around and there is blood. Everywhere. I see a switch blade on the opposite end of my blue rug. Its got dried blood on its ends.
" No.... I've been clean for three months!!" I exclaim, trying not to wake my family. I look down at my wrists. God I hate myself some times.  I stand up and walk to the bathroom across the hall.

Wincing in pain from the half bottle of hydrogen peroxide I pour on my open wounds, I continue to clean and bandage my wounds. 

Returning to my room, my computer pinging up a storm. I check the notifications. " danisonfire has liked your video, danisonfire commented on your video: it was really ace! You seem nic3 We should meet up. "

A  small smile creeps up my face. I feel... what is this feeling... I check
' danisonfire ' profile. No videos posted but dan is a male and 16. Hm....

I feel found...