lies - cameron dallas

[one]

Cameron Alexander Dallas

| XXXTENTACION - i don't wanna do this anymore
"wonder why they hate on me, i don't wanna love myself, i'm praying that you'll love me..."

i stare up at the ceiling, hearing soft snores from my girlfriend, Mariah

i turn on my side and look at her back, i sigh in disappointment and get up, i check the time '2:46 am', i look over my shoulder and see Mariah faced towards me with her eyes open

"baby, it's 2 in the morning come back to bed" she says softly and runs a hand through her dark brown hair

"i can't sleep.." i mumble, i hear a soft sigh and the bed rustling

she wraps her arms around my neck and she sits on her knees, she leaves light pecks on the back of my neck

"let's get to bed, i'm really sleepy" she mumbles into my neck and removes her self of my body

i sigh, then get up, and head towards the bathroom

i stand there and stare at myself in the mirror as soft raindrops hit the window, why did i do that to her

i cheated on her twice in a week with a girl that i've met at a party
i didn't want to but deep inside i really wanted to

i haven't told Mariah yet, i'm not planning on it either

as i kept thinking to myself, i heard small foot steps walk into the bathroom

"why are you so upset.." mariah asks me, i ignore her question and turn around so i'm facing her and lean against the counter

"why don't we go to bed.." i mumble as i walk passed her and lay down in the bed

i don't wanna hurt her again...

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yayay i finally posted it, woohoo lmao
i hope you guys liked this chapter
and idk what else to really say
so
ily guys and byee 💓
-khaleea