Considering you refuse to see that she would give you anything, and do anything in her power to bring you two back, she began becoming sad. You stopped coming around, and you stopped showing as much affection as you normally would. She honestly felt neglected, but that only made her try harder, she knew there was good in you, and she knew the love was still there, all she had to do was wait, and continue to try.
God, did she try. She waited countless weeks, forcing herself to endure the pain, because there was a sliver of hope.
You were a broken boy in desperate need of love, you were confused. She wanted to help you, she wanted nothing more. She would attempt to talk about this, so maybe you could see she was truly trying, but you'd leave.
She understood you were busy, and she didn't care. She didn't care about anything bad. She only saw the good, and that's how she liked it.
You began becoming aggressive with her, and leaving more often.
She fucking hated it, because all she wanted to do was talk to you. You made her so FUCKING HAPPY. She saw no bad in you, even after you began taking the love away.
She attempted to rebuild the walls that were collapsing in her face, she began forgetting about other things in life, and making you her main priority.
She liked it that way, she absolutely adored thinking about you all day, she loved the thought of your smile, and your eyes gazing into hers. It made her cheeks turn rosey red, and her body to feel weak.
She was attached. You soon made this attitude towards her a constant thing, you talked less, you avoided her, you fought about stupid shit. She was devastated. This wasn't what she wanted, she just wanted the relationship she had in the beginning back.
She wanted what she had before the problems started. But she wasn't going to give up just because of a few problems, so she stuck around. She attempted to help you more and more everyday, she would breakdown, she would hurt herself, nothing seemed to take the pain of you not loving her anymore, away.
It didn't make her sad that you were busy, or didn't have time to talk, it made her sad that you thought you couldn't be with her because you were busy. It made her sad that you made excuses not to be with her, she didn't care about any of those. She just wanted you back, do you know why? Because she's fucking in love with you.
You're such a confused boy, with great things ahead of you. She wants to be by your side to accomplish those things, because she fucking loves you.
The fact of you not being with her, tore her apart, she refused to see that things wouldn't work out. She began missing the things you two had done, she began crying again because she couldn't have them back, she was trying so hard and it just wasn't working.
Was she not good enough? Was she not trying hard enough? Did she need to put more into this? She attempted to give whatever she had left, and throw it into the relationship, hoping it would bring whatever sliver of hope there was, back into her life.
She needed that hope, even if it wouldn't last, she fucking needed it. It helped her get through the day, knowing you at least cared about her.
The hope disappeared. She was actually hurt.
She hated herself for days, you two began drifting, she tried so hard to keep you two together, because that's what she wanted.
You're supposed to be her Prince Charming, but it looks like she won't be getting her happy ending.
You would get upset when she tried to tell you how she felt, and you'd leave.
She didn't like that, she wanted you to stay, even though it stressed you out, it stressed her out even more, because she was trying to fix things, and you were getting rid of them.
Still, she refused to give up because she still felt as if maybe there was a sliver of hope.
She loves you.
You took everything away from her, and she's still fucking trying. Shouldn't that say something about her? Shouldn't that say that she's actually willing to try? She doesn't care about the bad things, she's willing to get past those, and recover every bit of love that had been lost. You just have to want the same thing, but you don't.
You're so caught up that you're some monster, when really you aren't.
You're a god, who's just so fucking confused and upset with himself that he neglects the love that's being thrown into his face by this desperate girl.
You need to understand something, I don't know what love you've dealt with in the past, but she takes this shit seriously.
She truly fucking loves you, and if you can't fucking see that, then open your god damn eyes. OPEN THEM.
Realize your worth, and realize she made you happy. Talk to her about it, she misses you.
She loves you. She just wishes you'd come back, she wants nothing more.
You're her sunshine, you're all she wants.
She can't stand it, she's willing to put herself through the pain for you, she wants you more than anything.
You said it yourself "maybe we're made for each other"
SHE BELIEVED YOU. She still does.
Please, God come back to her, she's struggling without you. She's trying to continue, but you made such an impact in her life, and she can't fucking stand not being around you.
You made it seem like you wanted it, so she took the opportunity to get attached. She thought it'd be safe to fall in love.
Was it not? Was it a trick? She doesn't care. All she cares about is you.
She still loves you. She always will love you, talk to her. You won't regret the decision you'll make.
Boy.
