Everything Falls Into Place

chapter 17

The truck started as Alexander took me to the pond.
He didn't ask questions or anything.
I rested my head on the window and looked at the bright sun.
The leaves blew up into circles as the truck passed by.
I loved the picture it made.
Once we made it to the pond we got out.
"Why did you want me to bring you here?" He asked.
"Because I needed somewhere to just sit and think"
He nodded as we both sat down on the log that we sat on before.
Flashbacks of the kiss filled my head.
I wanted to forget it, but at the same time I'm glad I can't.
I pulled my converses and socks off of my feet and through them on the dry land and stuck my feet into the warm water.
I relaxed..
I could feel him looking at me, but I tried to ignore.
I swished my feet back and forth in the water and watched as the rings went from small to big.
"You know" Alexander paused grabbing my attention.
"You really are beautiful"
I shook my head in disagreement and continued to look at the rings.
"Why is it you can't see what I see?"
I didn't respond.
"Ariva?"
"What?" I snapped slightly.
"I said, why is it you can't see what I see?"
I took a breath then looked at him up and down thinking of how i got myself in this mess.
"Because.." I paused not really wanting to awenser.
Alexander waited patiently for my response.
Then I finally spoke, "all my life growing up in middle school I was always called names" I took another breath " but you see they wornt a big deal they were simple names like ugly, dumb, idiot,and air head" they didn't bother me as much until my freshman year."
Alexander listened closely and waited for me to finish the story, but instead I just looked down at the water not speaking.
"Ariva" he said softly.
I looked to him.
His face was tan and beautiful. I wanted to grab his face and just kiss his kind and gentle lips, but also knew I couldn't.
"What did they say?"
I shook my head.
"Ariva" he said a little forceful. I could tell he really wanted to know why I don't see myself like her does.
"Fat, whore, kill yourself, your a waste of space" I chocked up "smelly, bit**, and lots of other things I really don't wanna say"
I quickly whipped away a fallen tear trying to keep him from noticing.
"Oh..I'm sor-" I cut him off.
"DONT YOU DARE SAY SORRY"
"Whoa!! Ooookkkaaay"
I took a breath then released the air.
"Why not?" He asked.
"I just don't like pitty, k?"
"Fine"
"Good" I sassed.
"Ok!"
"Ok!!" I mocked.
I looked at the water again..
"Why are you so stubborn and rude?" Alexander snapped drawing in my attention.
"Excuse me?"
"I'm always trying to comfort you and just be your friend and all you do is push me away"
His honesty was kinda annoying, but I'm glade hes straight up and honest.
"I don't push people away, you dinckle berry!"
"See that's what I'm talking about! RUDE!"
"Shut up!"
"Or maybe it's because you grew up only knowing a cruel and selfish father and that's why your so danm nieve and hateful!"
"Don't you talk about my father that way you don't even k ow him!" I snapped.
"Yeah well I have a right to judge a part of him for laying his hand on you" he put his thumb and index finger and put it on my chin.
I grabbed his fingers off my chin and placed then back in his personal space
"If you think I'm seducable, I'm not" I said snobby like.
He cocked his head and said "I'm not trying to get inside any part of you, but your heart, God danm" he snapped standing up and walked to the front of the pond.

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