I said no.
Wasn't that enough?
Your hands clutch my face and you kiss me with such ferocity I struggle to catch my breath. I struggle to push you away.
NO.
You shove yourself inside me, no invitation. I cry out to deaf ears, why won't you stop?
There's a burning hot pain between my legs and I know this isn't making love, this is the absence of love,this is rape.
My cries are punctuated with "I love you" and "it's fine" as you try to quiet me.
NO.
I push you away but you hold my hand. The same hand you held months before when you asked me to be your wife. A ring that signifies our future together, is now just weighing my arm down as I feel it's metal branding my skin.
NO.
I said no, but you wouldn't listen. Too drunk to realize what you were doing, to realize the repercussions of your actions. Leaving me to clean up the damage. So much damage.
You've left me with so much destruction inside my body that I no longer feel at home in my own mind. I'm left to question "what do I do now?"
Because as I lay here in this empty bed I'm left with so much time to ponder, to remember, but no time to forget.
