what you don't know

Dear you

What you don't know is, I may have said goodnight, but i'm not sleeping yet.
It's hard to sleep when i'm stressing because i worry. I might be delusional but.. it's going to be okay, even in this ugly god forsaken world. As long as i have you that is. Because you've been through so much even though you're so young. But you try and keep an upbeat attitude about things even though i know you hurt. I know it hurts you when you go to sleep at night, but i'm here for you.

What you don't know is, Because you are my world. My godforsaken world. And I love you. Even if your past is as ugly as the world we live in now, I'll be here for your future, to hopefully make it brighter, and happier. So you have to stop chasing those dark bad thoughts away. Because i love you. And when I say it, I mean it. With all of the beautifully broken pieces of my heart. I love you. I want my love to guide you, and i want my love to ward off those dark thoughts. So you can be happy.

What you don't know is, You make me happy, even if you do things that make me upset, or mad. I'll still be happy because you make me happy. I love when you make me happy because, no person can make me feel as you do when i'm with you. You make me so happy that i tend to forget my own problems.

What you don't know is, that i'm constantly worried about you in some way shape or fourm. Whether its the slight worry of you getting sick, or a major worry of you somehow dying, i'm always reluctant to let you alone at night. Because i know some days you let your thoughts get to you, and they get the better of you. and i can't help you if i'm sleeping. and i really want to be there for you to help you rid of the bad thoughts. Because I love you.

What you know is I love you.
What you don't know is that i'm in love with you.
God I'm so in love with you.
What you don't know is that I'd do anything for you, and I'd do anything to see you smile and hear you laugh.
What you don't know is that I'm always wishing that I can find the courage to say "hey I wanna Skype with you"
What you don't know is that i love you more than anything else in the world and I always will despite me ever being mad at you
It won't last but the minutes because I can never stay mad at you
I love you