Jinxx's POV
After a while of disappearing, I returned to Jake and I's place. Yet this time Jake wasn't home. So I sigh and decide to go down to the studio I set up for the both of us . To record and track and just to get some quality viola playing in, when my phone buzzed with a text message.
Jake: Jinxx baby
Me: Yeah Jakeypoo?
Jake: I-I-I think we need to go our separate ways for a while. Y-Your just never here and I I need something more.
Me: I can't argue with that I guess... but you know you'll always have a spot in my heart and I refuse to keep you without you wanting to stay so do what you must...
Jake: You know I will always... bye...
I couldn't work up the nerve to even answer him back. This was the second time this had happened. My urges to cut, I fall back into a depression which made me stray and then this comes my way. Our relationship has always been up and down from the start though as I think on it.
He went with Ryan Seamen from Falling in Reverse for about a year or so before we got together and he'd flirt with me telling me that he actually loved me and at the time I just couldn't say no. Even though I knew it was the wrong thing to do.
I had loved Jake for years, ever since we met. For him to tell me he loved me just blew me away. I knew he'd been with Ryan.. I knew he was cheating on him with me for a good three month span but for the first one I just let it go. Then I felt dirty. I couldn't take it. I had to make him choose.
I got called a slut and still do by everyone who wanted him to stay with Ryan. No one saw that he was unhappy with Ryan. Ryan continuously cheated on him and Jake had gotten to a point to where he'd cheat on Ryan to get him back. A constant cheat-fest. Yet he still choose me I was thrilled.
Our love was undying. Then we started loosing communication for a while. Cc was always there, he helped cheer me up when my depression came back. He was an undying and true friend who soon became a cuddle buddy.
Then Jake came back and stalked me for a bit, finding out that Cc occasionally would take the cuddle buddy status too far and try to tease me, getting minor reactions and Jake got jealous and accused me of cheating.
The fight from that went on for a good month, then we wound up back together and happy again. We went to the chapel and took a vacation to the Bahamas as we said our I dos.
Everything had gone back to happy soul-mate couple. Then communication dropped once more and that's where I am today. Knowing that its all my fault this time because I am constantly thinking. Constantly regretting loosing my best friend that I grew to love alongside Jake. Yet my love for Jake will always be stronger.
I'm breaking down.. I can't. I'm going to loose him again. This is too much to handle. we just got married and I thought everything was going to be fine again. I just.
My mind going to a blur, with makeup smeared and tears falling I walked over to CC's place. Hoping for a slice of comfort even though he probably hates my guts for ignoring him because I was told to.
CC's POV
" Jesus, I'm coming.. I'm coming hold the damn horses.." I say groggily as I stumble upon the mess of pizza boxes and beer cans. I need to start cleaning up. I think to myself even though I know those thoughts are better left in the trash as it will never be fulfilled.
I open the door to see Jinxx in tears, trembling. " Oh Jinxx, what the hell happened you look terrible. " I usher him in after a friendly hug as he clings to my shirt not wanting me to see the tears. God I hate seeing him like this, if I find out this is because of that asshole.. I just, I won't be able to take it. As we walk into my mess of an apartment I set him down on the couch beside me.
" Now now, tell mama CC what happened."
"W-W-W-ell" Jinxx stutters through his tears.
" Well what?" I look to him with a slight confusion through the worry.
" I-I-I'm single again.. I just I don't know what to do anymore CC I l-l-love him yet I am so numb to all of this..."
I take him into another comforting embrace. " Shhh Jinxx, you don't need him. He's more trouble then he's worth. All you are as of late is unhappy and I don't like seeing you that way. I miss the happy , energetic you."
Jinxx just looks at me blankly as tears continue to fall, a slight tension coming to the air as I know I have now struck a nerve with the mystic beauty that lies in front of me. I should be mad at him for leaving me in the dust but I just can't be.
Watch the next thing you know I am going to get a few glory days and Jake will be right back on him. Telling him he wants him back.. that he can't live without him. That he thought that's what he needed but truly he can't see the point of living. What an ass, I can't I just .. Jinxx doesn't need him.. he needs... well....
Jake's POV
" WHAT THE HELL WAS I THINKING" I scream across this never ending tunnel in which I am taking refuge in at the moment. I would say where but he might kill me later. So I look to my phone and look through the messages I just sent and the conversational past between me and Jinxx. God I am such an idiot.
I begin to strike up another text but instead of sending it I just save it to drafts and look through the contacts on my phone to see I still haven't deleted Ryan's yet. With a saddened lust I decide to stir a little something up.
Jake: Hey little drummer boy?
Ryan: Well if it isn't guitarist of the fucking year! You still with that slutty excuse for a boyfriend you choose over me?
Jake: .-. No.....
Ryan: Oh if you could see the smirk on my face right now.. So then what makes you want to speak to me then? Let me guess... You want me back don't you?
Jake: If you could hear my growl right now. >_> and I dunno, maybe for the night if your still up in the game.
Ryan: .. Well I have been craving that taste of yours, I can't seem to find one like it. So I may just take you up on it. Plus if Jinxx were to hear about it :) That would make my night more then hearing you scream my name as you rip the pillows apart ;)
Jake: Grrrrr. ^///^ That was one time you ass. I can't help that you're a damn tease.
Ryan: Haha , you can't say you didn't like it. Whale you know where to find me if you want the D. See ya around you screamer!
I think I now remember why I left him for Jinxx but my lack of attention and sexual frustrations are about to drive me up a wall. Plus I do sort of miss being roughed up. So I guess a little action from a past lover couldn't hurt until I can strike up the nerve to go speak to Jinxx about wanting him back again.. after all we're still married so I can't just claim to be single....
I know I kind of make Jake out to be a douche bag in the beginning. I love Jake and am not hating.. it's just for the sake of the plot. It'll get better believe me... maybe. Just hang in there and if you like it give it a vote.
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