Rants.

In sickness: -Ella

Dedicated to:

Couples who have sickness as their hindrance for real, true love.

Urgh. My body hurts a lot.

What else?

It hurts. It hurts too much that I have to lie to him to keep this secret.

Why not tell him?

I don't want him to worry.

My decision is a whole lot selfish.

Yes, I know it'll hurt him like hell when he'll know.

I've thought of a lot of possibilities that may happen if I told him or if someone told him.

Both of us will be hurt too much if he knew.

So, I chose the best solution to not tell him and own the pain that this sickness causes me, both physically and emotionally.

It's a hard decision.

Now, what decision would you make?

Would you decide the way I did?

Or would you tell him?

What would he respond to that?

Oh right, you're not him.

You wouldn't know.

Would you dare to know?

Would you be brave enough to see what'll  he react to it?

I don't think so.

Nobody has.

I'm sorry if I'm too negative with possibilities.

It's maybe the effect of  my sickness.

A sickness I loathe.

Who would love sickness?

Wouldn't you want your loved one to be free from sickness?

Yes, right?

That's what I'm implying, the sickness I mean is being hurt by the fact I have it.

And I don't want nor need to see him hurt.

Until Then....