The After Math

Chapter 1: The Beginning of The End

     "I can't do this anymore" Sage told Sebastian as they were laying in the bed of his pick up truck. "You are always yelling and screaming at me even when I say I am sorry." Sebastian sat up in the back of the truck a curled his nose at her "look Sage, I am sorry I get an attitude with you please don't leave me." he wrapped his arm back around her to kiss her. "Sebastian don't".  "Fine" he screamed as he jumped out of the truck and  into the front seat. "Find your own way home then. So she did.

    It was that night that I knew nothing could ever be the same with Sebastian again. It was cold that night when he left me all alone in the dark and never turned back to find me. If it wasn't for Zack I probably would not have gotten home that night. My phone was dead which meant I couldn't call my parents. I probably wouldn't have anyways knowing they warned me about Sebastian.

    This had all happened time and time again with him but I always found a way to forgive him. I never thought the day would come where I would actually get out of the situation I was in with him. I should have never put up with it in the first place but I considered this to be what true love was. I never could have imagined him actually leaving me alone basically to die, but he did. I knew Sebastian had anger issues I really did but I thought I could help him through it. I did, for a while.

     Zack has always been my best guy friend and always listened to me either complain about Sebastian or talk about how great things were going with him. I will admit I did love Sebastian because when he was happy everything was great but it was times like that night when he'd scream at me and not be happy and it would break my heart every single time it happened. Although I had a lot of me loved Sebastien a part of me wondered if Zack would treat me better than Sebastien ever did.

     When I finally got home that night and got to a charger I texted Zack to tell him thank you for the ride home and realized I had 10 missed calls and over 20 texts from Sebastian calling me really rude names and asking for his stuff back. It was that moment I realized this time he was probably gone forever and I began to cry. I was truly heartbroken because him and I had been on and off for five years. I knew it was going to be hard to move on from him but I also knew I had to because of how he did me.

   I cried myself to sleep that night. If he didn't love me no one else would either. That night is when I realized this was the after math of the entire relationship, the night I knew I would not ever be the same, and the night I realized I didn't ever want to love again.

     Days upon days later he texted and called me over and over. I answered every single time. I wanted him back, I needed him back. I tried so hard to get him to come back to me but he was always so stubborn. He started to move on soon after that and it hurt. I thought to myself "if he really loved me how could he move on so quickly?". I thought that I was no good and it sent me into a deep dark depression.