Till death do us part...maybe ( A rock star prince book)

Chapter 10- Break down

Matt’s POV

“I don’t want you to go!”

“Anna…”

“NO!”

I was packing my bag, this morning I would be leaving for the rehab facility that Dr. Ryan had gotten in order for me. Up until today Anna had been very supportive, but now her anxieties were taking the best of her.

“Sweet heart im going to come back” I told her as I zipped up my suit case “I promise”

Over the past couple of days Anna had begun to show. It was something no one but us noticed, but no one else slept with their arms around her every night. Right now she was standing beside our bed, arms wrapped around herself, a sour expression on her face and tears in her eyes. The bruises from the accidents were already almost healed.

“What am I going to do by myself?” She asked “What will I do without you?”

“The same thing that you always do when I go away” I told her “Pretend that I’m going on tour”

“I have never been pregnant when you’re on tour” Anna snapped “What if something happens?”

“If something serious happens you can call me” I replied “Sweetheart you need to calm down. I’m going to go away for a while, I will be back before the baby is born and I will be better”

Anna’s anger was fading; I could see it in her face, now she just looked really pale and heart broken. I took her hand and pulled her in close to me.

“I know this is hard” I murmured, stroking her hair “And I’m sorry, I never meant for this to happen”

“I just want us to be normal” Anna whined into my chest “I just want everything to be okay”

“It will be okay” I soothed her “Devin and Amanda will be with you, you won’t ever be alone”

Even though I sounded strong and my words were soothing, I was breaking inside. I had gone days without a drink and I could feel my resolve breaking, I was already feeling irritable. I clenched my hands into fists against Anna’s back so she wouldn’t feel them shaking. I needed help, I knew I did, but I was also scared. Yes I was scared, but I couldn’t let Anna know that. I couldn’t let her know how terrified I was of losing her and the baby and that I didn’t know if I was strong enough to beat this. I couldn’t tell her that I felt like  failure and that I didn’t deserve her, because I knew that as badly as I couldn’t live without her I knew she was the same.

As though reading my mind, Anna clutched my shirt and looked up into my face; her eyes were both red and fierce.

“You can do this” She told me “I know you can”

Suddenly unable to speak, I just pulled her in close to me and kissed her fiercely.

Anna’s POV

Devin took Matt, I couldn’t bring myself to do it and Matt feared that he wouldn’t be able to do it if I “It was there. So as they drove away I stood in the living room and watched as tears ran down my face.

“He’s going to come back” Amanda said softly, as she came into the room and stood next to me “It may not even be that long”

I sniffled and wiped the tears off of my face, I hated this.

“I hate when he goes away” I told her, turning to face my friend “I don’t want this”

Amanda smiled sadly

“I know” She said “Maybe it won’t be that long, maybe he will get better fast”

I shrugged, suddenly feeling extremely tired.

“It doesn’t matter anymore Amanda” I said “I just don’t care anymore”

Amanda’s jaw dropped

“Anna” She said “You don’t mean that, I think you need to go lie down”

I nodded, not having the fight left in me to argue. What was the point if Matt wasn’t here? That’s just it, there wasn’t a point, why should I fight if there was nothing here to fight for?

There was nothing left

Amanda’s POV

I paced up and down Anna’s kitchen floor until I heard the front door open.  It was late, I had only seen Anna once since I sent her to bed and that was to eat and even then she hardly spoke are really even ate, it had me worried.

“Well Matt’s settled” Devin’s voice floated into the kitchen just before he walked in “Though he’s not exactly happy about it”

I stopped my pacing, wrapping my arms around myself and staring at him. He was just so damn beautiful that it was sometimes impossible to look at him, but right now I was afraid and he was the only one I could look at for help.

“Where’s Anna?” Devin asked, suddenly looking around the room warily

“She’s in her room” I told him “Dev im worried about her”

Devin opened up the fridge, sifting through the shelves until he found a bottle of water.

“She will be fine” He told me “She’s been through this before”

“But not with a baby on the way” I said “Devin she told me she doesn’t care anymore, she hardly even ate dinner, she won’t do anything! It’s like she has given up”

Devin leaned against the counter and looked at me, his gaze was piercing as he looked into my face.

“You’re really that worried about her?” He asked

I nodded

“Even when they broke up she wasn’t like this” I told him “Devin I’m worried”

Devin walked around the counter and placed his hands on my shoulders, I instantly leaned into him which he seemed not to mind because he wrapped his arms around me.

“I will talk to her” He told me “Don’t worry, I won’t let anything bad happened”

I sighed and relaxed slightly, feeling like I could trust him.

If Devin was here everything would be okay

Devin’s POV

I found Anna lying under the covers of her bed with the lights out. I could tell she wasn’t sleeping though, she was crying too much.

Slowly I walked into the room and carefully lowered myself onto the bed beside her. Hesitantly I reached out and rested my hand on her shoulder.

“You’re not alone” I said softly “You know that right?”

Anna sniffled, shifting under my hand but not rolling over

“Why did he have to do this Dev?” She asked “Especially now, why now?”

“I don’t know” I said honestly “I really don’t”

Anna’s shoulders began to quiver, letting me know that she was now really crying. I laid myself down beside her, she rolled over and buried her face into my shoulder. I held her tightly.

“It’s going to be okay” I whispered “It has to be”

She had no idea how much I was hoping that, and how much I was doubting myself. 

K so i know this chapter is a little lame and stuff, i have a bit of writers block and this is a filler. Things will start to pick up now, Devin is going to take on some rolls that may surprise you guys and some other people may do some things thst will be shocking, anywho i hope you guys are enjoying so far,