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Chapter Five

 5 Months Later...
Calvin's POV

I was shooting my ever first music video. Sweat was dripping from my forehead. I wore this long black hoodie. The setting of the music video would just be multiple scenes. Heavy bags were under my eyes. The color drained out my face. My prominent cheeks got paler than usual.  I haven't got any sleep for 30 hours. I was so damn busy. Also, I lost a bit of weight. I wasn't eating as much as I use to. I'm still excited for this music video, even though I was really tired. 

"Calvin are you ready?" Eric puts his bare hand on my shoulder 

"Yeah, I'm ready." I form my fake smile, wanting to die right now 

Cameramen gotten in their positions, so as directors/producers. 

"1...2...3...ACTION!" The director yelled 

"I've been watching time pass through the eye glass

I was looking through the window, a tear falling down my prominent cheek

and waking up to images that i can't seem to bypass

Behind the green screen, shows black and white flashbacks..

yeah..

I used to cut class to smoke

I take hits from a blunt. There's a scene of me sitting down in a chair, smoking.

but now i smoke any rapper and slice them up with a cutlass

and let me bust back and teach a reasonable lesson

on the best ways to cope with seasonal depression

see my breezy recollections came from reaching out for vescence

and remembering my vice's to repeat I'm level headed

think i need the devil's lettuce

There's another scene of me smoking

need to get my head straight

I sip a glass of whiskey, my eyes were red. 

think i need to sleep more, need to drop some dead weight

I laid on the bed with my eyes closed, pretending to sleep. I was hesitating to eat anything so I could drop weight..

need to see the sea shore, collect some more shells

I was at the beach, collecting shells. I show my beautiful, forced smiles. 

and probably ditch the old ones that's blessed with your smell

see i know what loneliness feels like believe me

I was curled in a ball, all alone in a room. The room was filled with nothing, but coldness and darkness. It felt as if I was blind, and everyone else surrounding me could see. They could see clearly. I couldn't see nothing. All I could see was pain, and flashbacks that killed me emotionally every time.

real life is easy, this reels like the TV

my heals might just lead me to happier lands

I went back to standing behind the green screen, showing lands in the background.

but i can promise you i wont be going back on my plans

i got Seattle to see, i got stubborn frowns to mend

I got happiness b

and a couple thousand friends

I've had Lazarus sleep

started ugly downward trends

and I've been battling speech

I was trying to rap, but I would choke on my words. I was deteriorating mentally. I was at the point where I couldn't speak at all. 

watch it come around again

i got Seattle to see, i got stubborn frowns to mend

I was wanting to make people happy, since I wasn't happy myself. 

and I got happiness b

and a couple thousand friends

I've had lazarus sleep

I rub my eyes, needing to stay up. The bags that were under my eyes explained how tired I was. 

started ugly downward trends

and I've been Calvin for weeks

I'm never shutting down again

i got Seattle to see

The camera zooms in on my big brown eyes 

I got happiness b

I've had lazarus sleep

My eyes were sparking with fire as my voice faded away..

I've been battling speech

i got Seattle to see

I got happiness b

"Cut!" The director yells

"Did I do good?"

The director walks up to me saying, "That was amazing Calvin!"

"Thank you." I nod my head, exposing my forged smile 

(Y/N) arrived at the shoot. She hugs me tightly around my waist, I hug her back. 

"Hey (Y/N)." I greet her 

"Aye Calvin."

"Calvin!" Eric calls out my name, walking towards him 

"Yes?" I look back, having my attention on Eric 

"You're the best Lo-fi Hip-hop artists I know." Eric pats my back

"Thank you dude. You're a dope ass manager."

"We all should go out and eat." Eric says 

"Agree!" (Y/N) says 

"What you think Calvin? I'm paying by the way." Eric says, clearing his throat 

"Yeah, I agree." I shrug my shoulders

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