Knocked Up II. [Harry Styles]

Chapter 2

Standing in front of the mirror is so different now. Here I am half naked, with my hand in my stomach and looking directly at it. There's a tiny baby inside of me and I didn't even notice until some days ago. How can someone explain that? How did I not found out sooner?

I still haven't processed all of this, is still very difficult for me. Its been only a couple of nights since I found out and still I can't believe I'm pregnant. Its weird, I don't feel pregnant.

Okay, sometimes if I smell something strong I go all nauseous and if I do something that tires me phisically I get dizzy but, apart from that, I don't feel like there's a tiny bean inside of me. I don't know how to explain it. Is this normal? That I don't feel pregnant?

With Jack, is was so different. Since day one, since the day I saw that little smiley face in the home pregnancy test, it was it. I felt like a mom. I still do. But I still don't picture myself as a mother of two, maybe that's it. I still need time to process this.

"Sienna? Are you done in there?" Harry shouts from the other side of the door. "I want to take a shower before we go."

"Just a minute." I shout back, realizing I've been standing here for long minutes now.

I gather my clothes and put a towel around my body, I almost forgot he has to go to the studio to finish a song. I want to go too, I need to distract my mind with something not baby-related.

"You took forever!" He says as soon as I open the door. I chuckle as I pass him by, placing my stuff on the bed.

"Sorry." I just say, now focusing on getting myself ready so I can go feed Jack before we go.

"Be in the car in ten, no more or less. We need to be there in time." He says to me with a wink, or at least he tries to.

Feeding Jack was quick, we've been starting on creamy soups lately and he really likes them. Specially this creamy squash soup, its sweet and so good for him. Now that he eats soups and fruits, he eats less times a day, which is a relieve. We used to spend a lot of time doing it.

Anne has been helping us a lot with taking care of him. With everything that's been happening I haven't felt good. Like, yes, I take care of Jack and I try to smile as much as I can, but its hard. Hard to explain, too, I just been really, really emotional.

How can you explain that you don't feel completely happy about the news of being pregnant? It's weird.

I don't want to tell Harry about all these feels, I don't want to worry him. He's been so good, I couldn't have asked for a better boyfriend, and maybe soon to be fiance. That's something we still have to discuss, because it was really embarrassing to throw up all over the floor when he asked. I don't want to brought it up until I feel like myself again. Or until I know the right answer.

I really need to clear my head. I feel like I'm going mad.

"Tell Harry I'll wait for him outside." I say to Anne right before I lean to kiss Jack's head and walk outside.

Since I got the news that I'm pregnant I have been thinking about all those times we weren't careful in the bed. There were so many times that we couldn't care less about protection. Countless times, actually.

Fuck... What am I going to do?

I can't take care of a baby while being pregnant. I'm going to be huge and cranky, all those mood swings, the cravings, the headaches. Plus, Harry is going to be on tour and the plans of me joining them completely changed when... When bean happened.