"SERIOUSLY JACK , AFTER EVERYTHING AND YOU GO DO THIS ?!" I shout at him .
"Babe let me explain" he was calmly .
"NO , ITS PRETTY SELFEXPLANATORY JACK "
"YOU NEVER BELIEVE ME !" He shouts back .
"ITS PRETTY HARD WHEN YOUR BOYFRIEND GOES ROUND TO HIS EXS , ESPECIALLY WHEN YOUR FAMOUS !" I shout back .
"I CANT DEAL WITH YOU SAVANNAH" he shouts walking out the room .
"DONT ACT LIKE IM IN THE WRONG " I scream tears falling down my cheek .
I slam the door and fall onto the bed. It's been two weeks since birth and we've already argued about 100 times but this is more than arguing .
He told me he went out for a walk , next minute I'm on Instagram seeing him with Madison . Is he stupid ? He's a celebrity , paparazzi will follow him .
We have children together , he's so immature and selfish it's unbelievable . I cry and cry until I fall asleep .
I'm woken up by a dip in the bed . My eyes open up to jacks back .
I turn my body round and leave the room . I ain't sleeping in the same room as him . I go into the babies room and sit on the rocking chair watching them sleep . Ivy's at Johnsons so she didn't hear the arguments . She has heard a few though , which I hate . I grew up around arguing parents , then my dad left me and Sammy and my mum . My mum later died of cancer when I was about 15 . The way I felt about my parents relationship was horrible and to put my own kids into that situation would also be horrible .
I have to sort this out , I ain't gonna tweet about my arguments so the whole world can no we're not a perfect couple who kiss and tell each other we love them . We're human , we fight we argue but in the end we both still love each other . I hope .
I eventually fall asleep on the chair until Kai starts crying .
"Heyyy baby " I cooe as I pick him up .
I rock him gently and he wraps his tiny fingers round the strands of my hair . He's about the size saskia was when she was first born . Saskias grown a little bit and so has he but he will probably always be smaller . I carry on rocking him and place him back into his cot where he falls back to sleep .
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I wake up back in my own bed . How you may ask well I don't know myself .
I smell jacks special bacon and role my eyes , this is his way for my forgiveness .
About ten minutes later I hear footsteps and see Jack with a big tray of bacon , egg , beans , toast and sausages .
"For you " he says handing my the tray with a kiss on my head .
"If you think I'm going to forgive you over breakfast then think again. But it's a start , all I want to know is why . Why would u put all this in danger over her ?"
