A/N : This is not a story nor a poem but my inner feelings on this very page.I caution you to read this with a open mind
You think people know whats good for you.What kind of foods,what time to sleep and the people you associate with.But Sometimes those very people are those who destroy you .I cant help but think who would I be without the rules.Without being told to, being an individual. Maybe that's why people go through midlife crisis.They are confused on who they are.I, a 16 year old feel like going through a midlife crisis through my whole life.I think I know who I am but then again I don't.I am one for the many people who put too much thought into the future.As if my life starts when I get older.The present is something I tend to be annoyed of.I cant do many things or be who I really I am.I make a whole lot of mistakes and cry a lot.I fail test and ace some.I lazy yet ambitious .But one thing i know is that I am dreamer.A person who urges the feel of excitement.My nose deep into books as I read several stories.The struggle and triumph of others life.I am dreamer who forgets about the presents and ponders on the past.I feel stuck in a box living a repetitive life but then again aren't we all. For once I would like to take control of my life.Make choices solely for me and without worrying about anyone.I would like to enter university and make my parents proud.With having a bountiful full of friends.I am a girl who wants it all.Lost is a word you can describe me.Lost into fantasizing a future that's better than the present.I don't know how many will read this but your not alone.The pressure is exceeding as we become teens.Not all about parties and getting high but struggling to make friends and ace a class.Our goals may be outrageous.Sometimes things will push you down.But not standing up and trying ONE more time is some you will regret.On the last point, I am a girl who has given up.Who feels like been treated wrong many times.Who cant stand with others biased behavior.I am not anything special just a girl who trying to make something out of nothing.
