When you need a silent friend

Part 1

       See i try something and it never works. I ether get in trouble or it gets shut down by somebody new. It's hard to cope with but i never know what to do anymore. I have a possible lying boyfriend, and i never know if i have real friends. I just put on a smile and say hi. If it's a bad day i will get stuck in a conversation with Fat Strawberry Troll. I always need someone there for me to help my get out of something. But you know sometimes that doesn't work either so i curl up in my own little hole a cry inside. I feel as though some people don't really care. I don't like when people lie straight to my face acting like they can get along with me, when in reality i nor them can stand each other at that time or place. When i want to get the day over with it goes by slower. Now there is a new kid that i call Bum JR. that i can't stand he will keep threatening me and saying that we should fight. LIKE NO WE SHOULDN'T I DON'T WANT TO FIGHT YOU, YOU SEEM LIKE ANOTHER FUCKBOY  STOP COMING UP TO ME WITH THE SAME DUMB ASS FUCKING SHIT EVERY DAY GET.A.LIFE. i don't know anymore should i stop from time to time should i confront the people i hate. I have no clue with life. Now that i have that off my chest what else. Right more about my possibly lying boyfriend, he only talks to me over text. Like what kind of relationship is that, not a strong one that's for sure. Do you ever hate when you want to talk to someone but you don't know when or where or what to say exactly THAT HOW I FEEL WITH HIM i try i really do but if he won't put any effort into this then i don't know anymore. Please some of you feel the same way, it doesn't have to be with a mate, but it can be about ANYONE. If you need someone to talk to and you feel alone in life then private message me and we can talk. Just ask people they will say that i give great advice. I just need someone to talk to other then my mom that i can trust to talk then please speak now or forever hold your peace i don't know when i will be able to update this but when i need to get something off my flat chest then i am coming straight here