I'm here in S.N.C. [Seoul National Cementery]
I'm here with Suzy. We're visiting my mom and dad. Oh how I wish they're still alive. Minsan, I don't like to see them in the cementery. It's just that I'm very guilty. Of what I did to them before they died.
"Eomma~ Appa~ Do you know how much your daughter misses you? Do you know how WE miss you?" -Ako
Talagang in-emphasize ko yung we.
Napaiyak na din ako ng biglaan.
"Haha.. I wish you're still here. Sorry if I was very naughty. You know, kids? But if you're hearing me now, I want you to know that we're handling the company very well. Rates got up. Better than usual. You gave the company to the right hands. Good thing you didn't chose me, huh? Haha.." -Ako na nabubulol
Sobrang sakit.
I couldn't help to stop my crying.
I want to ease the pain but everytime I see my mom and dad's grave, I couldn't help but cry.
FLASHBACK...
{Back when I was 9 years old}
"에 이것을 넣어. 우리는 쇼핑 센터에가는거야. [Put this on baby. We're going to the mall.]" -Mom said happily with her smile that goes up to heaven
She handed me over my clothes.
I look horribble. Like a litter monster with fierce eyes. Looking at my mom like I was going to eat her.
I threw tantrums. Tinapon ko sa kanya the dress she gave me. Exactly on her face. Actually that was her birthday gift to me. I never used it.
"안돼! 이 너무 못 생겼어! 당신은 어떤 스타일이 어떤 생각을 가지고 있습니까?! 당신은 정말 나이가? Aish! [no! this is way too ugly! do you have any idea what style is?! are you really that old? aish!] Ang baduy oh!" -Ako habang naka crossed arms
"Oh come on, Honey. 당신은이 드레스를 입고하지 마십시오. 나를 위해,이를 착용 해주세요. [You never wore this dress. Please, wear this for me.]" -Mom handing me over the dress again
"Please wear this for me your face! I said no! Maybe next time, go clean your ears! I'll never wear these kinds of clothes!" -Ako
Lumapit si dad saakin at hinawakan both arms ko.
"Your mom bought that for you. Don't you appreciate it? Mom used her own money. Do you know that people find it hard to make money? Lots of people needs money. So don't waste it will you?" -Dad habang naka hawak sa arms ko
Tinignan ko siya ng masama.
Tumingin din ako kay mom. She had a worried look on her face. She smiled with despair.
"Bakit?! Kapag sinuot ko ba yan, magkaka pera ba sila?! Oh my, Dad! They're poor because of low IQ. They can't even afford to study again! That's why. They don't work hard to gain money that's why they beg! Come on dad!" -Ako
I was shouting at them.
Shouting at them.
Shouting at them.
Shouting at them.
Halata sa mga mukha nila mom and dad na gulat na gulat sila.
"Hyo, please don't shout at us. We're still your par----"
Hindi niya natinapos yung sinabi niya dahil nagbehlat ako sakanila and went up stairs to my room. Yung door, as usual, I closed it with all my might. Kamuntikan nang masira. I locked it.
