There and Back Again {On Hold}

what love feels like.

Dave's POV:

Its been about two days since karkat messaged me. I think I upset him by having to leave after he told me his feelings.
I was gonna ask him out but Roxy came in my room and asked where I wanted to eat since she said she was gonna take me out to eat. I decided to ask him later cause I don't have time now, and its plain rude to ask someone out over text.

Its true that I've had a crush on him. I just never told anyone not even lalond But I think she already knew.
I've wanted him since the day I met him. He's just so..cute and shouty it's adorable. I kinda died a little inside when he said he actually liked me.

I wanted to ask him out in person so I decided to go to their house.

I walked up their driveway as John's dad was coming out.
"Oh hello dave? Here to see john?" He had asked me.
"Um..yes?" I answered not so sure.

He nodded at me and got into his minivan. He must be going to work.

That was so weird...why didn't he say, here to see john and karkat?? I'm a little concerned now.
I walked through the door.
"John? Karkat? Yo You guys home?" I yelled.

Seconds later john came down the stairs.
"Oh hey dave!" He said all cheery.
"Hey john whats up?" I asked.
"The sky." He replied smugly.
"Shut up!" I laughed.

"Wanna come hang?" He asked.
What with him...? He doesn't talk like this..
"Oh sure." I said.

Where was karkat? How come he hasn't come down to say hi?

I followed john upstairs.
I looked at karkat's door as john led me into his room.
His door was closed. Was he in there? What's going on? Where's my KitKat? Is he mad at me?

We hung out for about 20 minutes and still no sign of KitKat. I was starting to get worried.

Then the home phone downstairs started ringing, john got up from his desk.
"I'll be back dave!" He said and dashed out of his room.
I heard a muffled conversation downstairs.

I looked across the hall at karkat's room.
I started heading to it slowly. I knocked on it.
"Kitkat?" I asked. "You in there?"
No response. I turned the nob slowly and opened the door.
I walked inside.

It looked so...empty... All of his stuff was gone. The dresser had no cloths in it, the closet had nothing in it either and there was no laptop on the lone desk on the corner.
Where is all of his stuff?! Where was he?! I was now completely scared.  Where did my KitKat go?! Is ok?! What happened to him?!

I felt hot tears burn my eyes.
I didn't wanna cry, not now anyway.
"Dave?" I heard johns voice.
I turned around to face him.
"What are you doing in the spare bedroom?" He asked.

Spare bedroom?! But this is karkat's room!

"W-where's k-kitkat?" I managed to say.
John's face dropped.
"He uh..he doesn't live here anymore.." He said quietly.
"Wait! What do you mean he doesn't live here! You guys adopted him!" I yelled.
"His brother came and took custody of him..he lives with his brother now.." He started looking upset.

I looked john directly in the eyes. "Where's. My. KitKat?!"
John gave me a weird look.
"He lives on oak street now! You can go visit him if you want! His address is 612." He said.

I took off down the stairs, out the door and down the street.

Scarlett street.

Armoson street.

Oak street!!

I ran down the street and counted the street numbers.

609.

610.

612!

I ran up and knocked on the door frantically on it.

No one came at first.
Is no one home?!

Then I heard shuffling from iniside, then the door opened reveling my kitkat.

"Da-" he didnt have time to answer me because I tackled him.
He blushed like crazy. He's so cute!
"D-dave! What the fuck are you doing?! G-get off of me!!" He yelled.
"No way bro...never." I replied. I was so happy to see he was ok.
"Can we at least get up from the floor?!" He yelled.

"Oh..sure.." I let him up.
He dusted himself off.
"Now what is this about...?" He turned away. "Why are you here?"

I was confused, was he mad at me?

"I..I was worried about you...you weren't at johns house...a-and your room was empty.." I felt tears fall, I couldn't keep them in anymore.
"I was scared...s-scared something happened...a-and I was never gonna see you again!"

"Why do you even care!" He snapped at me. "You never showed me that you cared before?! Why now?!"

I didn't know what to say..I guess I never did show him how much I care.

"You never speak your mind..you never show any facial expressions! You never take off those gog damn sunglasses! I all I want is to be able to see your face but its half covered by your stupid shades! It..it upsets me that you don't trust anyone with your feelings..I..I.."
He broke down and sobbed. "It..its like you don't care...h-how do I know how you feel when you don't show anyone?!" He yelled.

"K-kitkat..." I began but he cut me off.

"Don't "kitkat" me! You always give off different signals! F-first your saying you like to talk to me then you blow me off when I tell you my feelings...so why don't you just reject me already so we can get this stupid thing we have going over with!" He yelled.

"Why don't you just go ahead and rip my heart to pieces..." He mumbled.

I walked over to him.
"Dave what are you...-" I cut him off by puting my arms around his waist.

"I'm sorry...I..I care more then you think.. I'm just bad at expressing." I whispered.

"Dave please d-"
"Shh.."
I kissed him.

He kissed back. It was magical. I never felt so happy then in that moment.

"Damn you and your cool kid ways.." He mumbled.

"So kitkat...whatcha say? You wanna be my boyfriend?" I asked.

He smiled. "Yes"

He leaned in this time, putting his arms around my shoulders, kissing me lightly.
Another spark of enjoyment went through me.

A couple hours later, we were in his room laying on his bed cuddling. I never thought I would get this far.
Soon he fell asleep against me. He's so fucking adorable.
I took my shades and sat then on his bedside table and cuddled into him farther.

Man this boy is my whole world. He is all I care about in this moment.

Well...I guess this is what love feels like.