I'll Do Anything For You: Haleb

3. Hangover

Hanna's POV:

I awaken in Caleb's arms, in his apartment. At first I forget about everything and just smile and snuggle closer to him. But then I try to remember the events of last night. Jenna. The fight at my house. Caleb leaving. (Well, I kicked him out. I know he would never leave willingly.) Getting wine. And then I wake up here. What the hell happened last night? What if Caleb took advantage of me while I was drunk? No, Caleb would never do that. He loves me. Wait, no. He doesn't. Ugh. I'm so confused.

So I decide to wake Caleb up with a slap. "What the hell happened last night?" I yell as his eyes flutter open.

"What?" He asks with that sexy voice boys get when they wake up. No. I can't afford to think like that.

"You heard me." I say harshly.

Caleb seems to be confused as to what I'm asking him, but then when he gains awareness of his surroundings, he remembers.

"Oh. Right." He says, but as he opens his mouth to speak again, I cut him off.

"Did we- you know- do anything?" I ask, scared for the answer.

"What? No! Hanna I would never take advantage of you like that!" He says defensively. I feel extremely relieved. "I do love you, Hanna." He adds.

I just ignore his last comment. "What happened last night?" I demand, standing up but then sitting back down due to the throbbing of my head.

"What do you remember?" He asks.

"We had a fight. You left. A big bottle of wine." I say.

"Yeah, um when I left, I came to my apartment and I was just basically crying and then you came and..." Caleb laughs slightly. What's so funny? "And-"

"Is something funny?" I ask, cutting him off.

"No, Han, I'm sorry. You were funny last night. You thought I was Johnny Depp and asked me for advice on your 'boyfriend troubles' and then you told me you loved me and I put you to bed and went to sleep on the couch and-" I cut him off.

"Caleb, if you're gonna lie, make it decent. You woke up in the bedroom." I state, rolling my eyes.

"You didn't let me finish. You were asking me to stay with you but I didn't want to because it might lead to, you know, stuff and I didn't want to take advantage of you so I went to the couch and a few minutes later you came crying and sobbing and begging me to stay with you because you had this nightmare." I feel my face drop. Caleb knows about my nightmare. That means he was probably in it.

In my nightmare, it's basically everything I love being taken away from me. Everyone I love telling me they don't care and they never did. It usually starts with Em, Spence and Aria, which makes me extremely sad but the part that always brings me to tears and screams is when Caleb appears. Tells me he never loved me and never will. Tells me it was all a joke. But if I explained the dream... I might have said he was in it. And if I said that he was in a dream about everyone I loved... So much for pretending I don't love him. Caleb continues.

"And you begged me to stay with you and I just- I didn't want you to have nightmares so I carried you to bed and got in with you. But Hanna, nothing happened. We were laying in the position we woke up all night. I promise you."

I feel a sigh of relief. I don't know why, but I believe Caleb. Nothing happened last night.

We sit in an awkward silence for a few moments.

"Do you, uh, want some coffee?" Caleb offers. I don't know if I should accept this offer. He's basically offering to talk things over.

"Sure. Um, I just need to go to the bathroom okay?" I say softly. Caleb nods and heads to make coffee. I ponder what will happen during this conversation. I walk to the bathroom and lock the door.

I sit down next to the toilet. I think. Next thing I know, there's a toothbrush down my throat and I'm throwing up in the toilet. Caleb must have heard me because I hear running, followed by his voice.

"Hanna, what's going on in there? Are you..." I can hear the fear in his voice. The fear that I have gone back to my old ways. "Hanna open this door."

Why should I? "No." I say simply. I move my toothbrush towards my mouth once again. But Caleb's voice cuts me off and I pause.

"Hanna open this door right now or I will have to break it down." Caleb says.

"You wouldn't do that. Not for me." I say simply. He never loved me.

I hear a simple "watch me" and before I know it, I hear a loud crash and the door completely breaks down, followed by Caleb coming running in.

He runs towards me, grabs the toothbrush out of my hand and places it down. He doesn't say a word, just engulfs me in a huge hug.

"You did that... for me." I whisper quietly, staring at what is now left of the door.

"And I'd do it again." He says softly in my ear. He really did that. For me. Just because he loves me. Just because he cares.

But what if he doesn't? What if he's just slightly gluing my heart back together so he can smash it all over again? What if Jenna is paying him to play with my heart?

"Caleb... Can I just be honest with you?" I ask quietly.

"Always." He says softly into my ear, his voice sendings shivers down my spine.

"Is... is Jenna paying you to do this? Because I honestly don't know if you're just playing with me, trying to break me." I say barely louder than a whisper. "And if you are, trying to break me, that is, it's working."

I finally muster up the courage to look into his eyes. They're filled with shame. And sorrow. And pain. But most of all, love. And looking into those eyes was a complete mistake, because I feel as if I just fell in love with him all over again.

Those beautiful chocolate brown eyes... They make me forget about Jenna. Forget he was using me. All I know is that I love Caleb. And Caleb loves me. He stares right back into my eyes. He seems to be as lost in my eyes as I am in his. I lean in and place a soft kiss on his lips. I then snap out of my trance.

"Because even when I try to hate you, I can't. Because I am literally, utterly, head over heals in love with you and there is nothing I can do about it no matter how hard I try." I say. I didn't expect to say that. The words just kind of poured out of my heart, and I knew they were true. I paused for a second before continuing. "But if this, us, isn't real to you, please just tell me. Please, just stop torturing me and if this isn't real, I'll just figure out a way to live with it." I pause. "Or not live with it." I say the last part quietly, not expecting Caleb to hear. But he did. And his eyes widen.

"No, Hanna please. Don't even think like that." He says with concern. "Nothing has ever been more real to me. Ever. You're the only person I've ever cared about. I promise you, I would never hurt you. And I know that I made a mistake but if you let me, I know I can make it up to you." He pauses. "Because I love you." We both pause, lost in each other's eyes. "And I'd give anything to hear you say you loved me, too." He adds, searching my eyes for some sort of hope. But there's no room for hope in my eyes. Because my eyes are filled with love. Love that I know, no matter what, will always belong only to him. I am his forever and always.

"Caleb." I whisper softly, still looking him in the eyes. But then I break our eye contact and move my lips towards his ear, so close I'm sure he can feel my breath on his ear. "I love you, too." I say softly and slowly as if the world depends on it. And for me, the world does depend on it.

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Author's Note:

Moral of the story:

To solve a problem, get drunk.

Just kidding, only do that if you're in love with Caleb Rivers & Jenna Marshall paid him to spy on you but he truly does love you.

Anyywwaaay so I can't even believe you guys! You guys are amazing! 3 comments & 2 votes on the second chapter? Amazing!

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