Ended Blessing

Chapter One

After completely cleaning and saging my room I sat across my mirror on my bed crisscross positioned as I held my guitar and mimic India.Arie's song "Beautiful". Drowsed while emotionally playing , my phone began to alert me with unwanted notifications. Ignoring the irritating sound , I placed my phone on mute and continued to play on my guitar. Bulging into my room my mom looked at me with anger but rushed eyes. "Damn I cant play my guitar in peace?" I thought to myself before giving her my undivided attention. "yes ma?". "Dede I'll be back tomorrow evening I didn't cook so you'll have to do it yourself". I simply nodded and decided to go against playing my guitar. Living with my mama has been hell for me for the past three years. Yes three , I was living with my father for fifteen years before he got into serious problems as him being a business man and had to send me to my mothers. His business consisted of drugs , violence and money. My mother never took responsibility as the woman she is , or should be. Our disagreements became fights and our love became hate , or shall I say her love. She was drawn to crack cocaine for many years even when my dad had her as his wife. After birthing my eldest deceased brother peanut she became more sprung and inconsiderate of her children , chose otherwise and abandoned her responsibilities. Brushing away my thoughts I stood in my full body mirror and examined myself . Standing 4'11 with Ethiopian complexioned skin , I stripped myself nude and pointed my flaws and studied my appearance. My medium length curly hair flowed beneath my shoulders , my almond eyes now filled with disgust as I trailed them to my stretch marks that appeared from gaining my nice rounded ass. My breast even and still , I caressed them with lust. Before getting too intimate with myself I started my hot shower and played music from my laptop. Testing the water , which was perfect I then get in and let the water rinse away my frustrations.

So let me do what I wanna do come on and let me do what I do

Let me show you what I am made of ohh til the morning comes oh yeah

Baby come on let me do what I want to do only if you approve

I'll do anything that you want me to, to satisfy you

Baby I wanna

(Baby I wanna make sweet love)

Baby I wanna

(Ohh I want it good lovin')

Baby I wanna

(Ohh all I want to do is love you)

Baby I wanna

(Aw yeah Aw yeah)

As we lay down by the fireplace I'm thinking of things I could do to you

Relax while, while I make you feel real good

And doing things doing things like we should yeah

And we you'll come around I'll say

(I wanna treat you like a lady)

I'll want in special way

(It doesn't matter what day)

And when you'll come around I'll say

(I wanna treat you like a lady)

I know our love is here to stay

(Woah yeah)

I've been waiting by the phone for your telephone call waiting by the phone for your call

(Waiting for call)

I've been sitting at home thinking all alone thinking about us getting it on

(Listening to some Marvin Gaye yeah yeah yeah getting on getting on)

Let's get it on let's get it on let's it on

(Let's get it on lady)

Lady

Baby I wanna

(Baby I wanna love you)

Baby I wanna

(That's what I that's what I want to do yeah)

Baby I wanna

(You need me you need me)

Baby I wanna

(I need you yeah yeah)

Baby I wanna

(I want to satisfy ya)

Baby I wanna

(All day long)

Baby I wanna

(That's what I want to do baby yeah)

Baby I wanna

(You know you know you know you know you know)

Baby I wanna

My nipples harden and I used my freely soaped hand to trace my flattened belly and started to gently rub my clit. Enjoying the feeling I stuck my middle finger into my pussy and began to pleasure myself. Dismissing the light pain from me having a tight pussy I stuck my ring ringer inside myself as well and pleased myself with an ending of orgasm and bathing. I went into my quiet fresh scented room , moisturized myself & hair with coconut oil and dressed comfortably laying against my pillows that's placed against my wall. I grabbed my phone. "Hello beautiful my name is Ronnie , how are you? " this message popped up as a DM on instagram. Usually I don't respond but something told me to , so I did. Little did I know responding to him will bring love , heartbreak , loyalty , issues and realization. After several minutes of texting I had the urge to give him my number , I did. As I was waiting for Ronnie to call at 9:00p.m which was one hour away I scrolled through his page. He wasn't fully attractive but something about him already started to linger within me. I wanted him and he was going to be mine. "I am not looking for someone to buy my loving , don't spend..." I cut my ringing phone off by answering. "Hello?" "Hey what's up this me Ronnie". I paused to smile. Lord his voice is sexy. "uh hellooo?" Ronnie smoothly spoke into the phone. "Oh shit . I giggled . I'm sorry Ronnie I'm here. " "Damn you from New Orleans ? you sound sexy as hell..excuse me, your voice amazes me. Talk to me , I have all night , tell me about yourself I just want you to want you to ke..." "okay Ronnie , baby boy I got you , calm down. I said interrupting him because he was beginning to become extremely excited. I positioned my body as comfortable as I could and started our four hour straight conversation. Ending the call later the night I tucked myself in bed and went to sleep , but before I could fully go into my coma I received a texted from him. "Good night beautiful , I enjoyed our conversation I hope you have a great sleep. Again good night gorgeous talk to you tomorrow". Hell yea he better talk to me tomorrow , he mine now. Better realize that shit. I thought to myself after reading the message and falling asleep.