Every moment I was with her was like diamonds raining from the sky. Every moment with her was priceless. I cared about her more than my own family. Missed more than my dead mum. So why did you go. was it something I did or something i didn't do. I know I wasn't the best boyfriend ever but I did my best. You told me that you loved me that was all I needed. I gave you my all. So why did you go.
Looking back I realised why you left. Because I said things I'm not proud of, and that hurt you more then I realised.
3 months later:
It's been 3 months now and I haven't heard from you. You havent dropped a message or a call.
"Sid"?
A voice brought me back to reality.
"You okay"? It asked.
Ella my sister. She was sitting next to me with a hand on my shoulder. I had told her everything that had happened. I loved my sister. She was there for me when I needed her most. Right now, I needed her.
I lied and simply said,"yes".
I stood up and walked away. But before I could she stopped me and gave me a hug and, "no it's not".
She Sat me back down.
"Sid, tell me why you said what you said" she asked. "Make it come from the heart" she said.
"I don't have one, not anymore"
I went up to my bedroom and sat in the edge of the bed. I couldn't do it, not anymore. The pain was too much. I laid back and let my dreams envelope me.
2 hours later,
I woke. The house was silent. I couldn't hear the TV or radio so assumed my sister was gone. I sat up, put my head in my hands, and cried. The dripped from eyes into my hands and onto the floor. The pain was still their,mentally. My heart was shattered. There as nothing left for me now. I grabbed a pen and paper and started to write.
Dear sis,
As you know the past few months have been hard for me and have been hard for you. You've helped me through these tough times, been there for me when i needed you.
But this is it, the world had tossed me aside like trash. This is in no way your fault. It is the world that should bow it's head down in shame. Im tired, si very very tired. I want to sleep and never wake up. I know this is selfish of me, but what you have to see is that there is nothing left for me here. Im Going to have to go now, I'm running out space to write. This was in no way your fault.
Love, your beloved brother,sis.
I played the pen down with tears pouring down my face. I got up and went to the draw. I pulled one if my ties out. I stood on the bed and tied it onto the light hook. I then tried the bottom end to the middle and made a Rustic noose. Knowing this would be the end, I slipped my head through the noose and tightened it to to my neck. I let my close and arms drop. I let my body fall off the bed. My last thought was of her. The one I loved. know I was gone, I couldn't hurt her no more.
