Laurance pov
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Ever since I left. Ever since I accessed the nether portal. I lost a part of myself. I lost my caring and controlled self. I lost my carless and straight forward self. I lost the parts of my self that she loved. I lost myself. I'm now brave and selfish and crazy and awful and e-e-evil. It hurts everytime I think. It hurts everytime I think of her. It hurts. I cry. I cry for hours at a time. I cry so hard that it hurts. I wish. I wish she would love me and not him. I wish she could finally see how much I need her. Why? Why does life have to be so cruel to me? Why does she have to love someone else? Why can't she be mine?
Aphmau pov
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Ever since he left. Ever since he accessed the nether portal. I lost a part of myself. I lost my easy going and humorous self. I lost my happy and laugh-a lot self. I lost the parts of myself that everyone loved. I lost myself. I am now always on guard and a liar and a serious leader. It hurts everytime I think of him. It hurts. I cry. I cry in secret. I cry alone. I wish. I wish Aaron didn't have to die. I wish I wasn't Irene. I wish I had less to worry about. Why? Why me? Why not a worthy girl better for the role of irene? Why do I have to have so much to worry about?
