Walk with me

Chapter 13

I woke up three hours later. And I heard a knocking at my hospital door. I thought it was Mitch. "Come in" the door opened and it was a doctor. He looked sad but I couldn't figure out why. "I have good news and bad news." I started to remember what happened earlier and I shook my head and started screaming and bawling. i glared at the doctor. "Get out. NOW!" I was shaking and screaming at him, but he must've understood cause he nodded and left. I was left screaming at the ceiling. "Mitch why? I didn't want this life without you! I can't do this! I don't want your brain I want you! You can't be dead, you have to come back! I need you! I love you Michael I need you back!" I was crying and I couldn't talk anymore and I fell asleep. Three days later I had to make funeral arrangements witch sucked. I could barely talk cause I kept crying. I still couldn't get over the fact that he did this. He gave up his life for me. I didn't want this. I wanted to live but not at this price. I had to talk at the funeral that day and right now was my turn and I could already feel my insides rip more then they already were. I kept telling my self that he wasn't dead. But now that I'm here it's finally occurring to me that he's dead. I stood up and I was already crying I opened my mouth to speak but couldn't so I tried again. "Michael was more then my husband. He was--" I cut myself off. "No he is my best friend. Always has been always will be. When I found out I had cancer he stood by me and made every minute worth while and I really didn't want to die. I wanted life so badly. But I didn't think of the cost. There's a quote that will haunt me till the day I die : "that's the thing about pain, it demands to be felt" when I heard that he died I felt the pain and I still do. We do not realize how lucky us humans are. We take the smallest things for granted, that they'll always be there. Like love, or life, or people. We do not realize that one day everything shall pass and so will we. I never thought that I'd loose him so quickly. And I only recently came to realize how lucky I was to have known him my whole life, to live him for a short time and to be married to him. I am grateful that he gave me his mind and I'm grateful for every second I spent with him. Not one second of my life was wasted or terrible cause each one led to this day. Every thing happens for a reason. We may not know what that reason is yet but we will find out. He once told me: " As long as the golden sun sets in the west and rises in the east, I will love you. As long as hell keeps burning and heaven keeps shinning, I will love you. If the world ends today, or you die tomorrow, I will still love you." Well I'm saying this to him now. Michael I love you and even tho your body may be gone your spirt and soul and memory will live forever in the hearts of us all. I thank you for giving mr the gift of a healthy life. And I thank all you for coming here today. It means a lot to me. Thank you" I got up and everyone was clapping and crying and after the funeral I felt better. It was like he never really left me. I went home that night and I got a call. "Hello?" Doc: "Kelly I have news!" Me: "well ok talk" doc: "when you came here I took a scan of you and your pregnant!" I smiled "thank you doc." I hung up and put my hands on my belly and smiled. "I knew you didn't leave me Mitch." Knowing I have a part of him will make it easier. And I can tell our child story's about Mitch and that way he can tell his kids and so on. We live on this planet only to die and rot but our memory's will last forever in our hearts of those we touched. You see love does not die it just grows stronger with every battle.
(Not the best book I wrote)