Failure created my doubt
My doubt imprisoned me in confusion of what went wrong
A void in myself that even the drains Pacific Ocean
My pain runs deep, deeper than space itself
It crippled me, left a scar
That shames me
Pain that i cant reveal to anyone
Slowly i shy away from their eyes,
I remembered that day even till today
Its a tragedy that haunts me,
Sometimes, at night my mind reminds me of that failure
And endless streams of tears wet my soft cheeks
Forms salty sea that drowns me
Year after year i tried to redeem myself
Yet I fail again
My ego crushed to dust
As the race, that I once thrived and crave for
All I can do being left behind is blame myself
But I told myself, being weak is futile Now an oppurtunity presents itself,
Its' fruit looks so tantalizing
I long for it,
I know what i must do now
I must preseve now
I must work till I break my back
Till down to my very last bones are broken
Although my heart still bleeds,
Those lost blood becomes my strength
But, I fear for failing again
Will I fail again I ask myself
Conscious told me only time will tell As men who won the war soiled themselves in sweat,tear and blood first before seeing the sunlight.
