I had just finished all the introduction. I was already quite fond of the greenete.. I was now asking questions to find my..preferred mate?
"Raise your hand if you aren't fully straight." I say. 2 people raise their hand. Joshua, and Nik.
"Raise your hand if you listen to metal." They all raise their hands. "If you listen to metal core." Nik keeps his hand up. "Name your favorite band." "Motionless In White"
"Favorite death core band."
"Suicide Silence."
"Favorite Confide album."
"All is calm." He says. Wow this man is fucking hot. I turn around to think about my preferred mate, though it was obvious. I turn towards the males, and beckon Nik to me.
He smiles a small smile and comes with me to the lake. "Tell me about yourself." He says to me. He was looking at my left arm..he didn't know I cut, right? I hide it away
"uhm.. My name is Melanie and um.." I shift awkwardly. "I dunno... Ive died my hair more than 12 times?" I mutter. "I've been in choir for 8 year--" "Why?"
He cuts me off.
"well...music is an outlet for me."
"That wasn't what i was talking about." He growls quietly.
"Then what where you talking about?"
"Your arm. Why." He whispers.
I look down, only for him to pull my face up to his. He places his pink, soft lips against mine. I suddenly pulled away, though I enjoyed this moment. I ran off, into the woods.
By the time Nik caught up to me, I was already a crying mess. My composure melted and crumbled to the ground. My eyes stung from my makeup as the thoughts swirled around my head. 'You're fat!' 'You're ugly' 'kill yourself, attention whore' 'you only cut for attention'. I let myself fall to the ground. I felt Niks arms wrap around me. I cried until i felt like i couldn't cry any more. "Im sorry I brought it up." He whispers. I don't respond. "Paralyzed...by my envy of the night...i am lost without you...and outside it looks like rain. For the last time, i bleed myself dry tonight.." he sings softly, his hand hovering above my arm. "And nothing i could ever write, would help you understand this life, theres so much beauty in your eyes, lay lost in all the city lights.." i burst out into tears. "The wax will drip as so as blood, romance is dead in all its lust, you are the water in my lungs, we've lost it all.." he finishes, holding me tighter than before. I let him do so, because if he didn't, i would stop trying.
