Her words, My touch

Chapter 1

Meredith Fervenie, what a name God has blessed me with. I am only 18 and I have had plenty of bizarre stuff going on in my life, but like they say 'There is no success without hardship.' Now after I have pulled through toughly, I can do what I want freely and speak my mind without the fear of being judged. I was always the one, fearful to open my mouth, scared about my own feelings and thoughts. Friends kept telling me to be brave but I never had the courage to, 'till I met Seraphina. She just about changed my whole life and moulded me into the redoubtable human I am today.

I was only 12 when I had just broken up with my first ever boyfriend, and it felt weird having a boyfriend who was more timid than I was. I didn't feel safe neither did I feel like I could trust him. His friends were just the worst; they never let me forget him. They would text and call me in the mid of the night yelling offensive words through my ear. It got so bad that I would cry myself to sleep out of guilt that wasn't mine to carry at all. This incident triggered thoughts in me that I never really loved him, I never knew how to give him my all, they way he gave me his.

"Hey, were you even listening to me?" Kaysha snarled at me snapping me out of my thoughts.

"Um, maybe?" I looked at my best friend sheepishly.

"You always do this to me,"

"Sorry, I can't help it okay."

The bell rang and we quickly picked up our books and started to walk to class.

"I'm sorry, I'll make it up to you," I begged with my eyes.

"Okay, I really hope I'll get my Mer back"

The second bell rang and quickly ran to class and thoughts came back to me.

I didn't feel straight, I didn't feel much attraction to guys. I somehow foolishly gathered enough courage to text my best friend, Kaysha, if she wanted to be lesbian; YES it was crazy! I immediately regretted it but you can't blame a 12-year-old heartbroken girl. Okay, not really heartbroken. I was just not in the right mind to do proper thinking.

Moving past that, I felt really different. I felt like I wasn't normal and I felt a lot of mixed feelings. All of a sudden, it hit me that I might be gay. All of that was rarely mentioned and talked about around me. Ignoring my sneaking suspicion about my sexuality was definitely not helping! I tried to talk to Kaysha about these thoughts but I felt she wouldn't understand it at all.

Being the only child, I never had a 'sibling' to share this feeling with and so, I kept it under wraps for the longest time. But then 3 years later (present time), Seraphina joined my school; somehow we were placed in the same class, same swim team and even same houses! I was obviously thrilled to make a new friend but then, there was this buzz that Sera was lesbian and I was wondering how did she gather so much buzz about her sexuality when she hasn't even made it one week into the school.

I wore a white romper on the first day of the term and I had especially done my hair but knowing myself, I will probably go back to the old Ponytail in a week's time. If I remember correctly Sera had worn a sky blue crop top and high waisted denim shorts and her shoes were one of a kind; they sparkled at different angles and went all the way above her ankles.

I went up to her after the lunch bell and thinking back, I probably looked like a desperate ass looking for friends

"Hello! I am Meredith but you can call me, uhh...Mer...Everyone does! What's your name?" I held out my hands and she shook it acceptingly and acknowledged.

"I'm Seraphina, call me Sera" and I was taken aback at how confident she was despite those horrid rumours.

She sat together with us during lunch and coincidently bought the same meal as me and I swear after that lunch break teachers hated us; we wouldn't stop talking!

We talked about her previous school and how her chemistry teacher always wore the same undergarments to school every day-ew gross right? I definitely enjoyed her company and I'm sure she enjoyed mine too; well, hope so! We both looked forward to school every day and talked about our families.

To be very honest, I think her Ivana-her mum treated me pretty weirdly. I somehow feel that Sera was not telling me something. I know you can't pour your entire heart to someone you've just met but you see the connection we established was quite close and I felt that I could share just about anything with her but I knew she hasn't told me something. No, I didn't force her! I just went day by day and let my curiosity grow.

2 months after knowing Sera, she invited me over to her place and she introduced me to her family! Damn, I have to say, Sera's brother, Ignacio, isn't only running around sweaty at 17 but that hot body, no one would be able to resist. Ivana her mum, I already met Ivana before as she fetches Sera from school every day. Pierre her dad, I have got to say that man is pretty wise and definitely sharp, he could tell Sera brought home someone even before we knocked the door, nope Sera did not tell him in advance. And of cause her cute little puppy – Ava; finally, Aiden has a play buddy!

Did I mention that Sera's house is humongous? I could have gotten lost it in! She lived just a 35-minute drive from my house...It was that house that Queen Joana owned but I always thought that only royalty lived in there. I guess Pierre must have bought it from the Queen, after all, the queen has too many properties, too little people and besides Sera's family seemed quite wealthy. I must also add that Sera's room was probably the size of 2 rooms, and the interior of her room was marvellously done, lilies by the window, curtains that framed her bed, metallic double-toned curtains...all was just enough to make me go D A M N.

'Brnnnnnnnnnnnnnggg' The bell had woken me up from my trance.

I realised I had promise Kaysha that I'll make it up to her during lunch break. I slide my right arm into my pocket and took out my phone, I called and made a reservation at Kay's favourite restaurant.

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