Trust issues

Chapter one

    A belief in one persons reliability, the confidence placed in a person to be held responsible for someone or something, or trust. Trust is something you can't give just anyone. To earn trust from a person is like teaching a dog to do tricks, you must give them attention, you have give them a reason to believe in not only themselves nut you as well. Trust isn't just given, it must be earned.  

   As I write these words in my English notebook, I know I 100% have trust in a few people. My mom, my dad, my boyfriend Tanner, and my best friend Jennifer.  Although I do not let just anyone in and give them my trust, I am not one of those people who say they can't trust anyone. I have too many reasons to have trust in people. No one has ever done me wrong or given me a reason to not have trust for them. 

     "Laurennnnnnnn!!" I hear Jennifer before I see her and I already know she is in a good mood, which is good for everyone. I turn to see Jen, who looks effortlessly gorgeous. She is towering me with her 5'8 frame over my 5'3 height. Her makeup is always done and her hair that almost reaches her butt is always different, today it's in a braided bun. 

     "Lauren, OMG, did you do the English homework? I didn't. Please tell me you didn't so that I'm not the only one." 

    "I just finished it. All you have to do is write what you think trust is. You can finish it when we get in the classroom." 

  "You already know I don't trust anyone except like you. Kobe ruined trust for me and you know that. This assignment is stupid and you know it." She is right, I do not understand why we had to write what trust is to us. Frankly, that is none of Mrs. Smith's business, Shouldn't she be teaching about things like clauses and things that will actually help up with out ACT and college classes? 

   "Lauren listen, I understand that you have trust in people. I get that you trust Tanner, but I don't. I don't like him, I think you can do better. No, I know you can do better. I'm sorry, I know you love him and I try and be supportive of that but I do not like him."

     Some people may think that Jennifer is not a supportive friend because she doesn't like my boyfriend, but in reality, that's just her. She is always honest and that's why we are friends. I would much rather her day things like that to my face then say things like that behind my back. And although she does not like Tanner, she has still gone with me to his baseball games and is always there for me. But, she doesn't know it but just a few weeks ago, Tanner was going to leave me because I said if I was made to choose my best friend or my boyfriend, I would choose Jennifer in a heartbeat. She is my rock. I don't know what life would be like without her. 

     "Listen, I know you don't like him but at Thanksgiving can you please get along? Like just one day? That's all I ask." 

      "Ugh, I better start preparing myself. It's crazy how it's already November. Your Thanksgiving meal is Friday,  right?"

       "Yes, and I expect you to be there. In a good mood. No, a great mood. Now you better write what trust means to you before class starts." 

     With an eye roll and a deep sigh, Jenn does her paper and finishes just before Mrs. Smith walks into the room. 

     Sometimes I feel bad that I haven't always been completely honest with Jennifer about Brooks and I. We got together for the first time last August but then in September he left me for Kourtnee Carter. It did not even last a week before he came back to me and explained himself and I took him back. Then in January I was logged onto his snapchat and one of his exes had been snap-texting him and said I love you Brooks Lee and he said I love you back. I still stayed though. 

    This is when you're going to say wow, Lauren is stupid but it gets worse. In April, I received a DM on Instagram from an account with screenshots of conversations with Brooks and he had been sending pictures of his, well you know, to other girls and I still stayed. But Jennifer does not know about any of this. No one does actually. Except the Kourtnee thing, everyone knows about that but it was not a big deal because no one had really known we were together anyways. 

    I really wish that my bestie and my boy could get along but I have come to the conclusion that it probably won't happen. They are two completely different people and I don't blame either for not enjoying each others company. But I guess it will just make Thanksgiving interesting. 

 Hey guys, I know this is super short! but I had to post something just to get this started. First, I just want to say thanks for reading but I wanna send a special s/o to Keva for inspiring me to write again!