I Am The One (Kpop x Male!Reader) (Male Various) (BoyxBoy)

Ikon B.I. x Male!Reader

Title: Fly

Hanbin POV

[M/N] was laid out on our bed, still and unmoving. Yet even in his statue like state I could tell he was sad. Maybe it was the slight, almost invisible, furrowing of his eyebrows. Maybe is was his breathing, and the way the ragged movement of his chest didn't match his beautiful features, not even a little. I gazed at my lover worriedly, my eyes lingering on his furrowed brows. I lifted up my left hand, using my fingers to gently smooth them out.

[M/N] moved suddenly and grabbed my body making my eyes widen. He then pulled me down and burrowed his face into the warmth of my, his lover's, neck. I shifted uncomfortably but settled down, finally deciding to wrap my arms around the younger.

"Binnie.." [M/N] whimpered as he tightened his grip on my black shirt. I kissed his forehead, then I pulled him closer. I tossed the blanket over us and reached to turn off the light, only to find myself unable to move. Sighing slightly, I kissed his forehead once more, then closed my eyes and let sleep overtake me.

-Time Skip-

"Han.. Hanbi.. Hanbin!" I shot up and turned to [M/N], I gasped when I saw him. He was shaking as his hands reached out searching for me. I could feel the tears in my eyes as I sank down back into the bed, shaking him awake.

"Jagiya wake up! Jagi!" I shouted shaking him more as he began to whimper. His eyes snapped open, and he shot up from the bed pulling me into a hug. [M/N] held me closely for what seemed like hours, but I knew it was only several minutes.. When he pulled away he was still hiccuping..

"Jagiya.. Tell me what's wrong.. I'm so worried about you.." I said softly as I ran my fingers frantically through his tousled hair. [M/N] sighed so quietly I would have no doubt missed it had my mind not have been completely focused on his smaller form. He slowly leaned against the bed frame, pulling a pillow to his chest.

"Hey Hanbin?" He muttered inquisitively, meeting eyes with me before quickly staring back down onto the bed. My brows furrowed as I saw him fiddling with the tail of the gorilla pillow. I let out a small hm, letting him know that he could tell me whatever he wanted to tell me.

"Do you love me?" [M/N] asked nervously, taking in a deep breath and slowly letting it out.

Silence

I was shocked to say the least. Of course I loved him! What kind of a question was that?

"Why are you asking that all the if the sudden?"

"I don't know.. maybe I'm insecure.. but we never really see each other anymore," he answered, his gaze never leaving the bed. I felt horrible, I couldn't believe he felt that way.

"Jagiya I've just been with the comeback you know? I.."

"I know Hanbin but I noticed that your members visit me more often then you come home," he muttered softly, hesitatingly leaning his head against my left shoulder. My eyebrows once again furrowed.

"The members visit you?"

"Yea.. especially Jinhwan and Jiwon.. They were worried about me after the Junhoe showed me the clips.."

"............ what clips?" I asked already having an idea.

"Of you and that girl.." when he said that I grimaced. I had always knew he was somewhat insecure.

After drinking he would break down in tears spewing out bullshit.
How he wasn't good enough for me. How he didn't deserve me.
How I should just leave him and go find a nice girl and settle down.
How no matter how hard he tried he couldn't truly give me children.
How he couldn't give me the white picket fence "dream".

Yet he never noticed that I didn't want the white picket fence.
How I was the one that didn't deserve him.
How I didn't want a girl, I wanted him. How having children didn't matter to me because we could adopt.

When he would see me with a female idol or fan that liked me, he would smile and tell them that they were my type..

But he just honestly didn't understand.. Even if they were my type he was the one that was the most important..
He didn't think I saw all the small grimaces of pain, or the fake smiles he put on in front of the females that found me attractive..

He didn't understand that if he wasn't in my life I would die..

I grabbed his shoulders and then lifted his chin until he looked me in the eyes. I kissed him on the lips lightly before hugging him tightly..

"Never think that you are not good enough for me because you are the only one I want. She was just a random girl that was hired to play a character in our music video. If it could've been you I would've rather it been you. In fact I was imagining you the whole time!
Because she doesn't matter to me she is just some random girl that I will never talk to again.
But you, you are my life. You don't need to be perfect all you need to do is stay by my side. I love you, not her.. you. Do you understand?"

He began to cry, his tears staining my shirt as he clung onto my shoulders. I smiled as he nodded.

"I love you Jagiya.. Not because you are male or because someone told me to.. I love you because you're you."

"I love you too.." he muttered kissing my neck..

"You are my wings Jagiya.. Without you I wouldn't be able to fly.. You're the only thing that's keeping me from plummeting to the ground."

He smiled slightly before pulling me back down into the bed.

"Thanks Hanbin.. I needed that.." he stated kissing me.

"Anything Jagi.. Call me and I'll come flying."

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