Note of Suicide

Case no.1

I'm sorry...
I really am.
I know these kind of notes always start with sorry and since this is my first time- well it's the only time I'll ever write this note since you die once right? Haha...

Despite being an adult I'm still so childish I know, ending my life because it doesn't go the way it wants- nothing does- but that's not why-

I just never had any friends... and when you were my first... I couldn't help falling in love.  Inlove with another guy, crazy right? I know you think I'm cowardly...

when people found out about our relationship...

I went to their side... I'm sorry you had to suffer so much. I never meant to turn into the monsters I've been running from...

now I've been running from myself and it's all so pointless now. The things I could say and do if I kept living... I wouldn't be able to bear myself.... so I think I'll end it before I begin to truly hate myself from the bottom of my heart.

I'm sorry and I still love you...
You don't have to forgive me, it wouldn't be right... but just know I really am sorry.

I just didn't want to keep growing into what I hate.
Think of it as killing weeds...