back to your love; van mccann

take me back to your love

chapter 5

van

"van, just let me exp-" bondy starts, voice timid but i immediately cut him off.

"no... no, why the fuck is she calling you?!" i yell, standing up angrily.

"we've been, uh... having a thing for a little while now.." bondy grimaces, not looking me in the eye.

i am speechless as i stare at him, clenching my jaw too much to be natural. the only reaction i have is to throw something so i throw the glass of almost empty vodka in my hands st the wall, watching it shatter into pieces.

"van.." bondy tries, but i heatedly glare at him to shut the fuck up.

"get the fuck out." i growl, causing bondy to give me a confused look.

"w-what? van, i-" bondy stutters, but i cut him off.

"no, i can't stand to look at your face so you're not going to perform with us for the rest of the tour." i snap, causing bob and benji to get up, interfering once they hear this.

"woah woah, how are we supposed to do the rest of this tour, then?" benji asks, looking a little nervous as he looks at me.

"we'll replace him for now, but i'm not doing this tour with him. so it's either that or i'm taking the rest of the tour off." i say irritated, leaving the room and making my way towards the back exit.

as i make my way out, i instantly see fans waiting to meet us and i cuss under my breath as their faces light up once they see me.

"not tonight guys, sorry." i say, calling a taxi to stop as i walk towards the street.

once i get in the taxi i tell him to take me to a bar, one a few streets away. it's one i've been to plenty of times before. i pay the cab driver as he stops, making my way out of the car before going up to the entrance of the bar.

three glasses of vodka later and i'm starting to feel tipsy, stuttering on my breathing as things start to look fuzzy.

"van? didn't know you were back in town." someone says, and i have to actually look at the person going to sit next to me to see who it is.

"jen?" i say surprised, picking my head up a little and pushing my hair back as i try to get my eyes to focus.

"yep, it's me." she laughs, taking a sip from her drink. "i'm here with friends, wanna join?"

"don't think that's such a great idea.." i mumble, accepting the refilled glass of vodka the bartender gives me.

"oh come on, van.. we'll have a great time like we always used to." she smirks, grabbing my hand and pulling me off of my seat, making me follow her to her group of friends.

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an hour later and i have jen on my lap, her lips on my neck as i take a drag from my cigarette. my mind is way too hazy and even though i know i shouldn't, i grab her by the hip with my free hand, encouraging her to further her movements, dancing to the music.

"see van.. what's the harm in this. just like old times." she smirks against my neck, moving so she's able to look me in the face.

"van! there you are.. fuck, man we've looked everywhere." i hear bob say out of nowhere, causing me to blink rapidly so i can look at him over jen's shoulder.

"don't you see i'm kinda busy, lad?!" i over exaggerate, not really making any effort to get jen off of me.

"oh, whatever. come on, we have bus call. kinda got to get on to the next city." he says, and i sigh before getting jen off of me, getting up too quickly, causing me to stumble as i get dizzy for a second.

"bye, van." jen giggles, already off to her friends before i can respond, leaving me smirking to myself and for bob to slap me upside the head.

"ow, what the fuck?!" i scowl, rubbing the back of my head as me and bob head out of the bar.

"yous got to grow up, van.. you can't go finding random bars to get shit faced in." bob grumbles, causing me to laugh drunkenly.

"don't worry about it, lad. i've been to that bar loads and jen used to be a fling of mine when we first starting comin' to new york." i explain, but he just rolls his eyes and i sigh.

"bondy's really upset, so is the rest of the lads.. we can't just throw him out of the band for a tour. we have no one else." he says as i spot the bus down the street.

"well i don't give a bloody fuck. he's been sleeping with my girl for fucks sake!" i stammer, making my way past bob.

"just please.. think this through, alright?" he stops me by grabbing my shoulder and i look back at him for a second.

"you try having one of your best mates betray you like that." i say, shoving him off of me as i make my way onto the bus, and straight to my bunk.

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merry Christmas guys! just wanted to say thanks for reading this💗