My Inner Psycho exposed

Luke pt1

So my therapist told me I should start writing a journal because of my anxiety & depression. That stupid fucking asshole doesn't know shit about me. He just gives me his psycho babble bullshit so he sound all fuckinng smart! Well doctor you know absolutely fucking nothing! I'm pretty much throwing my money out the window by seeing you but it's also my my whore wife's idea.

I've been taking care that bitch for years. I had a boring desk job that made great money, my wife worked part time at a makeup kiosk at the mall. My step daughter is 13 & my son is 8 years old. Kristi & Brad are very smart, athletic & amazing kids. I've been with this woman for 10 years, we've had a up & down relationship for years. A few year back I lost my job then couldn't find one so my wife left the kiosk & began working for a marketing firm where she has finally put her business degree to good use. I eventually got a job stocking shelves at a supermarket, as you can imagine this is a exciting & amazing job that makes me literally hate myself for waking up still alive everyday! My marriage is awful shit! There is sex, no intimacy, no kissing, hugs, touching, no communication or anything. We can sit on a couch next to each other watching tv and no say a word for hours, She started travelling a lot for work lately to that doesn't help the matter.

My daughter god bless her soul helps out as much as she can with everything. Since the wife is the real bread maker she always gives me shit even though I keep trying to find another job while handling everything when she's not around. Then when she if all she does is bitch about everything I do also about how tired she is from work. She doesn't clean a damn thing or do anything around the house. I have no friends but my wife always goes out with her friends but never mentions us doing anything or going anywhere. She dodges any responsibility as a mother also avoids me allot. My anxiety & depression eats away at me allot everyday. I have no one to turn to as we love far from my family. I seriously can't stand my entire life, there has to be a way out.