Undecided, unpredictable

Day to begin with confident in yourself

"Renante! Keep on watching her please, wherever she would go. I can't take losing her." As I command my buddy.

"Of course bro". As he said over the phone.

"Thank you so much, you know how much I love her." A ding of pain and guilt hit me hard. Its the only way I could keep her safe. My dear daugher I hope you'll forgive me if time will come we've cross path.

"Of course you do, any father would do anything for her child. I know she loves you too. So don't worry to much." Even over the phone I can still see the hint of happiness on his eyes.

"I gotta go now, I have a meeting with the board in 20 minutes". Then i hang up.

My mind keep on thinking how is she, did she miss me? Or forgotten about me already? Arrrgh! I really need to clear up my mind before my meeting will go out wrong.

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"As I was saying Mr. Francis, the company is still on a high pit of success but even so, we shouldn't think to be so calm and comfortable with that. We still need to keep on track, for the benefit of the company and for us." How can I discuss this with them if they keep on bubbling with something. Like they have something that I don't know.

"Yes Mr. Sibay I know for a fact that the company is doing good, so what do you call for this meeting for? Tone of his impatient.

"Let me get this straight! As a CEO, I decided to have an expansion of this company. I want all of you to hear it from me first." The look of shock in their eyes, threatening to come out.

"So this is all about? Expansion? Wow! All I can say is wow!" A long pause.
"2 years ago, I proposed about this, but you clearly didn't accept it even hear me out and even look in the proposal?" Irratation is all I can see in him.

"Because 2 years ago,with those fake investors asking too much expenses of the contruction,do you think I never knew about it? the one you introduced to me. Do you think I will risk this company's reputation and money because of those badass?" One more word, im gonna rip that head of him, testing my patience isn't really good thing.

"I...I didn't know." Now you know bighead!!!

"Well.... Now you know. I come up with this plan so that not just here in philippines we can establish but also we can open and have more investors outside country." Because I have plans, but it's mine to know about that. Leave it to me.

"When do you think to start?" He asked.

"Before Christmas and New Year we can start for the construction, and The building plan is the same as here in the company." Okay maybe not all the design.

"What about the papers? People to be in-charge for the construction? And designers? Everything?" Is he really thinking that I have no control of everything?

"Before I come up with this, Of course I did plan everything. And there's nothing to worry about it. All I want to know, if you do all agree with that? Because all your support with this project is not just for me but for all. Yes, my success is not just for me, but also the success of my employees, without them this company wouldn't grow this far." I am successful, yes, but I am not complete and happy with my life.

Its all my fault, I am coward. I couldn't even fight for my family my daughter. My beloved daughter. And my wife. Im a big coward. Big Big coward. Its been so long. I want to see them, talk to them, hug them tight. Bring them to many places, I will do everything to bring us back together.

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After work, he went straight to where he could see her daughter, just to see glipse of her smile, every problem vanish just seeing her. Feeling the urge to see Jaisi is what excite him, like he's day wouldn't be complete without seeing her. But still isn't complete, he can't talk to her , even hug her.

••• JAISI •••

"Oh gosh! I'm going to be so late" yes because your too lazy to shower! Other side of me saying.

"Hey pretty lady". Just like that his cheeks, smiles also as what the curves of his lips did. What a mannerism of him!

"Sorry, I don't have much time to talk. Bye". Keeping my feet on the faster pace so I can catch up with my so near time to be late.

"Well I can walk with you if you like Ms." walking for him is kind of easy by the help of his long legs, well describe it if you want like imagine a giraffe has long legs and can walk just fine and can catch up even with a fast walker.

"Please not now den, as you can see I'm in a hurry and memorizing some speech for my big day okay, it is my chance. So if you'll excuse yourself! Thank you very much!" Not this again, now I feel my nerves shaking as my heart dancing like cha-cha in her cage. Oh yeah! Please oh please if this nervousness could please stop I will treat them an ice cream later.

"Okay, okay easy! Just calm your nerves down. But I will wait here for you okay? He plea like a kid waiting for a take out from his mommy.

"Okay, then wait until end of the day!" I mean it, just in case he changed his mind. Better!

"Oh! Well.... I will wait then." Oh that smile that creeps me out. Like he was practicing it since kinder school.

"Well... thats your choice not mine. Now if you'll excuse myself." Oh girl! Better run now before you'll be kick out just in time you enter at the door.

This is it, as I look up at the high building outside the very luxurious hotel in the city, I feel like I'm out of place. "Girl, because you never tried to explore outside the world by the mean"outside the world" is "outside your house" kind of that.

HOO! Do they hire me? What if I can't pass the examination? What if just walking in the entrance they find me unattractive to be here. What if I'm too ugly to be here! Oh gosh! Panic attack , please stop that not now, your invading my positive thoughts. Take it or leave it. Maybe it won't hurt that much if the results not good.

As I walk straight to a beautiful receptionist, even at far her smile shine through the lobby. She's really pretty, like a victoria secret model. Indeed suit for this company to have as pretty as her.

"Good Morning! How may I help you?" She asked in a polite tone.

"Hi! Good Morning. I was called for interview and for an examination by Ms. Dianne Suarez. By the way my name Is Jaina Sibay." With my full pack confident I did say it well. I thought for myself, just with myself. I don't think so with her.

"Yes, you can straight to 5th floor, right turn then you can see a door to human resource." She say with a glimpse of a smile in her eyes. How did she do that?

I return her smile " Thank you!"

I head straight to the elevator. There is 6 elevator but the left side are even numbers going up and down and odd in the right side. I tap the 5 button, before the door closed I saw a man stepping out at the even number elevator. Wearing his gray suit that fit him so well, holding his briefcase. He looks familiar but I can't fathom when and where?

A ding from elevator bring my thought back to life. A little time of thinking make me forget that I have an interview. I knock at the Human Resource and wait for a response. When the door open a cute brown eyes welcome me with a smile.

"You're Jaina?

"Yes, Good Morning!"

"Good Morning. Please come in."

"Thank you."

"So, are you ready for the interview Ms. Jaina?" By the way since Ms. Diane is on leave, She endorse you with me. So,I am James Reid your Human Resource Interviewee." Then he show his hand for a handshake.

"Jaina Sibay, applicant sir." And I give it a high five! Oh wrong! Handshake I mean.

Wow is offices here look like this? It's so beautiful as I look around.