I decided to go to johnsons . The babies were at Sammys and I don't want them to see me upset .
I knock on the door in the pouring rain . My makeups all down my face from crying and my hairs flat down on my head .
Johnson pulls the door open.
"Hey " I smile / cry .
"Savs what's wrong ?? " he asks pulling me in the house .
"Me and Jack argued and I don't think I can take him back j" I cry .
"Hey , come and explain everything " he smiles giving me a hug .
He throws me some sweatpants and a t shirt to change into . I shove my hair up in a wet bun and then we go back down stairs .
*explains story to him *
"And then I left him in the restraunt"
"He such an idiot" Johnson sighs .
"You can stay here anyway , your like my lil sis Savannah you know you can always rely on me right ?" He says .
"That's why I came " I smile and hug him again . I didn't realise how tired I was until my head fell on johnsons chest and I fell asleep .
•••
I woke up in the spare room . I grab my phone and see 5 texts of Sammy ,13 texts of Jack and 3 of Stassie .
I open up Sammys first which are basically saying ; " hey I heard about what happened , its all over social media . Text me when u wake up .
Stassies is the same .
I open jacks :
J: where did U go
J: babe please
J: I miss u
J: text me plz
J: I love u
J: I'm sorry
J: I didn't think you'd react like that .
J: baby
J: speak to me
J: I'm worried about u
J : your mine
J: I'm yours
J: I hope your safe
I then open up twitter .
Kyliejenner :
New lipkit shades !!
Jackjohnson :
Love all my fans so much !!!
Madison beer :
I swear some girlfriends are so obsessive and bossy , let him go to my party . Just coz your not invited doesn't mean he can't go . Seriously honey ....
I chuck my phone across the room . I let my anger take over me . I grab my jacket from last night and leave a note on the side of johnsons bed :
Ive gone out for a walk. Xx
I then leave the house and head back to my own .
Once I reached the large oak door , I grab my keys and unlock it . I sneak up the stairs and see Jack asleep on the bed .
He wakes up and looks at me .
"Your home " he smiles .
"Do not smile at me " I shout .
"Babe-"
"No I'm not your babe Jack, I need to have a break from you , and I'm not leaving this house u are " I say .
"What , you can't kick me out " he laughs .
"Oh but baby I can , it's my property" I laugh . I grab all his clothes out of the wardrobe and shove it in a bin bag. I then chuck into ontop of his face and pull him out of the bed .
"LEAVE THE HOUSE NOW JACK " I scream.
"No "
"LEAVE I CANT COPE RIGHT NOW I JUST NEED A BREAK WE CAN WORK IT OUT LATER " I scream until I break into a full on sob .
Jack holds me tightly . He rocks me to the side and kisses my head . Why do I have to feel so damaged all the time . I thought i had finally found a happy place in my life . I know how lucky I am to have had three children , to be wealthy and have a loving group of friends but that doesn't mean I hurt too , that doesn't mean I don't have feelings . Because I do and for all the girls who are in the same situation as me . You'll understand .
"Why Jack " I cry .
"Why her , why not me "
"What do you mean " he whispers .
"You obviously still love her if you keep going back to her . Why not me ? Why can't you love me like that ?" I cry .
" I do Savannah , you know I do " he says with tears coming to his eyes .
"Do you understand why I say we should take a break ?"I say .
"Yes . But just because I understand doesn't mean I agree " he says , a year falls down his cheek .
"Give It three weeks , you can see the children whenever , three weeks and then we can talk " I smile .
He nods his head and then leaves .
I crawl onto our bed and cry myself back to sleep .
