a story about my life.

this is a story about my life its just gunna be simple but u may cry because of the things that happend who know u may not know until u read the whole thing. Ill do the story first thing when I wake up well not right when I wake up because I don't wake up till like 8:00 or 7:00 in the morning maybe ill stay up who know lol then at the end ill maybe pull some jokes u never know im a bad joke tell btw lol after my story imma write a story of any choies so comment or follow for what y'all want ill throw in anything.

story about me life: Ello there love's my name is caitlin im 13 and in 7th gread ive had a horrible life and idk what to do about it I mean yeah im fine with it its just idk things are complicated at the moment my family is torn apart and I have no one I can trust no one will talk to im always in my room so what can I do nothing I can do nothing because there's nothing about me that I find interesting well accually idk I love to sing dance and play piano everyone tells me im sweet nice loveing careing and I am also people tell me im beautiful and pretty and cute but I just don't see it maybe that's just in there eyes but in my eyes I don't see that this is just another great day. I plane to become something in life but idk what to choose I love music and I love dance but idk what to do. my life is a desaster I wish people knew me better I want some to tell me everything is ok and be there for me but I have no one who I can trust my friends go behind my back and there not really good friends so whatever i don't care no more I basicly have no friends anyways I can always be a loner anyways to my full story about me no more school talk Haha used to using brefeations like lol or u r and y I cant do that in here its a story DUUUUUHHHH anywhoooo Haha ok real talk I grew up in a biggish smallish town in michagan where I live its not a safe place there's a lot of problems in my part of michagan but I deal with it my mom is from Detroit so I kinda have Detroit wiredness in me (no offence to people who live in Detroit im just saying sorry if its affenceiv I don't mean it to be) so yeah my mom and dad were married till one day they got a devorce witch ruined my life that's when things Whent down hill when I was 8-10 I was a fat girl up into 11-13 I started to loose waight I had health problems but now I don't I make the right choieses I go work out and dance but now I don't do that anymore my mom wants to get back into it and so do I. I waigh at least 120-124 im Loseing to much im almost really skinny and can I tell u all something? well this something is bad and I apologies for what I did but now that I cant stop idk how to continue my life this something that I gotta tell u guys is that I CUT yes I cut im not afraid to say it I forgive myself for it and regret it but when I did it I felt free I felt happy I felt idk I felt like everything was gone but really its not it still replays in my mind everyday even when I try to forget it but I just cant seem to get rid of it. the things that replays in my head is abuse that my dad and step mom did to me I was hit beat and all that kind of stuff this is kinda sad because I told my 6th hour teatcher this and I never told anyone at my school this except her that's the only person she cryed when I told her it was just sad and Painful for me to tell no one knows how much im in pain Everest because of it I come home and sit in my room and wish I was dead my life is just idk messed up it seems Like everyone else's problems some people have it worse then me idk. my dad cheated on my mom and my mom did the same my dad found out first that my mom cheated then my mom found out that my dad cheated so they got a devorce I know ive said that already but oh well its just I don't feel right ever wounder what hurts?  well its problems you suffer u cant keep it bottled up inside you all ur life its not good u need to tell someone. after that it Whent down hill they started to fight and I was stuck in the middle now my dad who lives with my step mom now to this day contiues fights emails nasty letters I read it all I don't know who to believe its one lie after another im almost about done I need to stand up but I cant im to scared my step mom hurt meme the most insted of my sister not my two step sister but my real sister.  I was abused the most I got hurt and lied to it hurts no one understands my pain I know im repeating some things but idk I am because I have short term memory loose so I forget things vary easily sometimes I forget who I am and who my family is and who my friends are that's only because of the things my family has done my heart is torn to peace's right now imma bout to cry only if someone understood me only if someone would say its ok ull get threw it only if I was the one to be dead I cant handle this the fights the blame the hatered in my family all off it I cant take it I need help. btw all of the fights and stuff is still going on till this vary day its been going on since I was a baby-little kid so basicly threw 2004.

this is where my story must come to an end this is the only page im doing no chapters no nothing this is all about me there are somethings idk about myself but anyways why would anyone care because its not like anyone would read this everyday and say oh well this Dosnt matter its just stupid and like every one see problems well guess what WHO GIBES A SHIT ABOUT ME NO ONE IM A FUCKIN MESS UP NO ONE LOVES ME OR CARES AABOUT ME Y AM I EVEN ON THIS EARTH HUH Y AM I ??? :'( anyways im done bye guys till next time -love caitlin ♥