The New Fosters: A Brallie Story

Chapter 52

Brandon's POV:

"Brandon I- I-" Callie started and then bolted out the front door. What the hell just happened? I jump up and run after her, but when I get outside she is no where in site. Where could she possibly have went so fast?

"Callie!" I yell. No answer. Think Brandon, you know her more than anyone, where would she have gone, out here? The beach. I run.

When I see her, she has her legs pulled up to her chest and her arms wrapped tightly around them. She has her chin resting on her knees as she looks out to the ocean. She's shaking slightly and I can tell that she's crying.

I sit down in front of her and she looks down. "Not now Brandon. Please leave me alone." Her voice is shaky.

"Not going to happen Callie, not until you tell me what happened."

"I can't do this no Brandon. I love you, but I need you to leave me alone. Please," she pleads.

"No. Callie I love you more than anything in the world. Will you please tell me what you're thinking?" She puts her head down so her forehead is on her knees and she can't look at me.

She takes a shaky breath, I can hear the tears in her voice and my heart breaks. "You are only asking now because you know that there is a chance, and a large chance at that, that you may not come back. Brandon, I can't handle that, I can't lose you. I love you so much and I want to marry you, but not if you're asking just to ask if you don't come back." She cries into her hands. I wrap my arms around her and hug her into me.

"Callie I'm not asking you to marry me because I might not come home and I want to know that I asked if something did happen to me." She tensed.

"Brandon, don't say that. You don't understand, I can't lose you."

"Let me finish. I'm asking to marry you because I love you and I want you to be my wife. I want the world to know that you are mine and I am yours. I want to wake up next to you every morning and have kids with you. Callie, I love you so much and I know that I will be okay because I have you to come back to. So, with that said, will you please marry me?" She pulled away from my shoulder and looked at me. Tears streaked her face and filled her eyes.

"Brandon. You are the only person that I have ever been able to tell my feelings to or say that I love or have even thought about marrying, but, Brandon, I'm scared. I'm scared that you won't come back to me and that I will be alone. I said it before, I can't live without you," she cried.

"You won't have to. Callie Jacobs, I promise you that you and I will be together for a long time. We will buy a house and have kids and watch them grow up and see them get married and have grandchildren and we will do it all together, okay?"

"Brandon. Everybody leaves me and all of that sounds great and I want all of that with you, but- but everyone leaves me. You may not mean to but you will, just like everyone else." I feel tears in my own eyes. I can't believe that she really thought this, that she thought I would leave her like everyone else had.

"Callie," I say firmly. "I promise you, that I will never leave you. Baby, please believe me."

"B, I'm scared. I love you, but I'm scared." She whispers.

"I know you are, I am too, but Callie, being scared is no reason not to do something that you want to do. You said it yourself that you wanted to marry me. I know you are scared that I'm going to get hurt or worse, but if we stopped doing what we want just because we are scared nobody would get anywhere, we wouldn't even be together right now." I explain.

"Brandon-" she starts.

"Callie, please."

More tears fill her eyes. Then she nods her head. "Okay."

"Really?"

She smiles slightly and nods. I tell that she is still thinking and worrying about everything. "I love you Brandon. Please come back to me," she whispers in my ear when I pull her into my arms again.

"I will. I promise. I love you too, so much." I hold her and she leans into my shoulder. "Do you want to go home?"

"Will you stay with me?" She asked me quietly.

"Of course." I get up and dust the sand off of my pants and reach out my hand to help her up. She accepts and I drape my arm over her shoulders. I kiss her head and we walk back to the house. We blow all of the candles out and I grab the ring box off of the piano. "You ready?" I ask Callie as we walk to the car. She stops.

"What?" I ask.

"Can I have my ring now?"

I smile. "Of course." I take it out of the black box and take her hand in mine, then I slip it on her right ring finger. "Do you like it?"

She looks down at the ring. "I love it."

"Good." She takes my hand and leads me to the car. I start the car and head towards her house. She holds my hand with her left one and stares at the ring on her right one. She stared at it and moved it around on her finger so the moonlight caught on the diamond. We drive in near silence, only the hum of the car makes a sound. I know that she is thinking. Thinking about me not coming home, Ty not coming home, her being without us, alone. I know that she was thinking of a way to stop us or talk herself out of marrying me, I don't take it personally, I know that she loves me and I know that she wants to marry me, she is just afraid that she's going to live without me. I love her and that's how I know that I will come home to her, I would swim across the Atlantic just to be with her, I hope she knows that.

We pull up to her house. I get out of the car and open her door for her. She grabs my hand and unlocks the front door.

"Will you still stay with me tonight?" She asks.

"If you want me to."

"Go up to my room, I'll be right there," she tells me and I start up the stairs while she goes into the kitchen. I open her bedroom door and plop down on her bed. She comes in shortly after. She walks past me and to her closet, changing into a gray t-shirt and black spandex shorts.

"Babe," I groan. "Are you trying to taunt me in those shorts?"

Callie smiles slightly, "I wasn't trying to, but I couldn't marry you if I can't taunt you a little."

"Well I guess it's a good thing you can." She sat down next to me.

"Will you lay with me?"

"Of course. Are you okay?" I am starting to get worried. One minute she's sad, the next she's happy. I'm worried she will change her mind and not want to marry me anymore.

"Yeah. I'm tired." I took my khakis and my button down shirt off and layer down next to her. "Apparently I'm not the only one whose taunting, Mr. I sleep with no shirt on." I laugh. She snuggles up close to me with her head on my chest and my arm around her. I feel he body shake. "Brandon?

"Yeah?"

"I'm tired of trying to act like nothing hurts me all of the time, pretending to be strong. I'm scared as hell and tired of faking. I- I'm terrified, Brandon. I might lose two of the people I care about the most." She cried quietly. "You can say it a million times, but there is still a chance that you won't come home."

"Callie-" I try, but she cuts me off.

"No Brandon. Stop trying to convince me different because I know you're just trying to make me feel better. Just hold me and be with me okay? Please, B, please?" She cries.

"Okay. Okay. Shhh. I'm here. You are okay, I am okay. I'm here." I try to soothe. "Shhh. You're okay. I love you." Soon she falls asleep, but I stay awake thinking. I'm breaking the promise that I made to her, that I would never hurt her and I'm hurting her, breaking her heart. I kiss her head and, even though she is asleep and can't here me I whisper, "I'm so sorry, Cal, I'm so sorry."

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Author's Note:

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