Loneliness

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I sat there staring into the darkness.
Everything felt so cold after she left as if she took all of my happiness and warmth along with her.

My bed felt too big, my thoughts felt too crowded, and tears fell too often.

No matter where I looked, I would always be reminded of her with painful memories of once happy times.

Some mornings it feels almost impossible to get up because I remember when she used to squeeze me and kiss me awake.

And instead of the songs she would hum to help me fall asleep, I am drowning myself in alcohol.

Now I'm just left with these horrible thoughts of self destruction and I'm not sure if I want to stop them anymore.

Because after all it already felt like I had died when she told me that she had stopped loving me.

And that was my worst fear, was for someone who I loved so deeply to leave me behind as if I never mattered at all.

I knew from the beginning that she was too beautiful and amazing for me to be able to keep her as mine.

But I was foolish enough to take the risk of an already doomed future.

I only did it to feel the happiness that she made me feel, but it left faster then it came and the world is even darker than it was before.

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