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10. Boyfriends And Girlfriends

10. Boyfriends And Girlfriends

Did he love me? I asked myself. But, I don't think I'm ready for love. I called Demi because I don't know what that was. A dream, a nightmare, a vision, an issue, I don't know?

"Hello?" She answered the phone.

"Demi! I need your help. It's urgent! Meet me in front of my house." I told her.

"Alright, I'll be there in 20!" She hung up.

I got myself dressed in a pair of light jeans, then a white v-neck, and a pair of my white converse. I put my hair in a ponytail, then ran down the steps to my front door. I flung open the door and sat down on my front steps. I closed my eyes for a little and I felt a presence in front of me. I opened my eyes and I saw Ryan standing in front of me.

"Don't say anything, please? I just want to talk." He stressed out. I nodded my head and let him talk, it was the least I could do. I was being a bitch to him and being dramatic.

"I'm sorry. I should've told you. I didn't think you would react this way. I really want to be friends with you. It's better than not being friends at all. The tension between you and I is so thick, it gets difficult to breath when I'm around you. I miss having you next to me, laughing with me, hugging me, holding me. It hurts, I honestly felt like shit because I was the one that hurt you. I'm sorry." He had nothing but honesty in his eyes.

"Ryan, I'm sorry I overreacted. But you have to see it from my point of view. You were my best friend, my only friend. We hung out and played every day for so long, then you just, sort of, left. I had no idea what happened. One day we were hanging out at the park, the next I went to your house to find it empty. That whole week I barricaded myself in my room and cried. I thought I did something wrong for you to hate me. You were gone when I needed you the most. That was when She left. I thought that I just had this knack that made people leave. The point is, I needed you when She left and you weren't there. That hurt my self-esteem." I hung my head, replaying the childhood memories. One of the worst memories there were.

He leaned in and kissed me. It was now that I realized that I am in love with my childhood best friend. He kissed back with so much passion, it made me gasp. I thought he would take advantage of it, but he didn't. He stopped the kiss and started breathing heavily. I stayed in that same position with my eyes closed.

He stood up and said something that I thought he would never say to me in this moment.

"I have a girlfriend."

As soon as girlfriend left his mouth, a tear escaped. I don't know what caused me to say this, but it was out before I could stop it.

"I have a boyfriend." I was talking about Kevin, but honestly, I didn't know if we were a thing or not.

"Oh, who is it? Kevin." He stated arrogantly. "Actually, yes," I whispered. As soon as I said that, Demi arrived. 

Thank goodness. I don't think I could have survived that tragic moment. The guy I'm in love with has a girlfriend and I, supposedly, have a boyfriend. If anyone heard about my predicament, they'd think I was crazy. I was in love with a guy that had a girlfriend, while I was dating another guy, that I wasn't in love with.

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