An Isolated Man

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An Isolated Man
Part 010

His side.

Wala na akong magawa.

Bigla-bigla niya akong hinalikan. Hindi o alam kung bakit. Bakit nga ba? Para saan nga ba 'yon?

Hindi ako makagalaw. Parang nagkaugat ang mga paa ko sa lupa at ang mga kamay ko, parang nawalanng buhay.

"Jameson. . ." Eliza said when our lips parted.

Napatitig lang ako sa kaniya. Naghihintay sa kung ano ang lalabas sa bibig niya.

"Jameson. . .mahal na yata kita."

Nanlaki ang mga mata ko. Kasabay no'n ang pagkabog ng puso ko. Parang gusto na nitong lumabas sa dibdib ko.

Nanlambot ang mga tuhod ko. Parang gusto kong matumba sa narinig kong 'yon mula sa kaniya.

"E-Eliza. . ." sambit ko sa kanya.

Tumitig lang rin siya sa 'kin. Naghihintay ng sasabihin ko. Hindi niya nahahalata ang tensyon na nasa loob ko ngayon.

"Eliza, I really live you. You don't know how happy I am right now." sabi ko. Naramdaman kong unti-unting bumabagsak ang mga luha at gumapang ito sa aking pisngi. "You don't know how much I love you. And by saying that you love me too, it blew my mind and right now I think I'll became paralyzed. I really live you, Eliza, and I will make you happy more than you've expected."

Lumapit ako sa kaniya. Nag-aalangan pa ako, pero tinuloy ko na. I hugged her. Latched her in my arms. I let the urge inside of me. The urge of showing her how much I love her.

I touched her cheeks. Swiped it until my fingers reached her lips.

"I love you Eliza Alexxandra Martinne. And I'll make sure you'll be happy with me." I said and then, cupped her cheeks and slowly, I closed the gap between our lips have.

I kissed her deeply. I kissed her like I can't do it tomorrow. I kissed her to declare my love for her.

I hold her nape and held her closer to me. She didn't reclaim and answered also my kiss. I know, it's too early for us to do this.

But can you blame me?

My life span is less than a year from now.  So how would I wait for the enough age for me to do this?

We both parted for air.

"Thanks." I said, sincerely.

"Para saan?" she quickly respond.

"For being open-minded."

After I said that, she didn't say a word. She just focused on what I will say.

"My days are counted. I will die. So I don't have a choice. I can't help but, do what I can do until I'm still alive."

She's just listening.

"I know, it's sounds desperate. But, I need someone to fulfill my wishes. To fulfill my plans that I can do if I don't have an illness. And that person is non other than you." I said.

"Naiintindihan kita." she responded. "Alam kong kung ako ang nasa lugar mo, gagawin ko rin ang gusto ko. Alam kong wala ka ring magagawa. Pero, andito lang ako. Kung ano mang gusto mo, gagawin natin." she said.

"Hindi ka desperado." she declared. "Sadyang pinagkaitan ka lang ng tadhana na mag-enjoy sa buhay mo. Besides, nasa tamang edad na tayo."

I smiled. She's so understanding.

I hugged her again.

"Thank you." I said.

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