Hearts Beat Together

Ugliness Within

My eyes are covered by his tie my skin is bare and exposed to the warmth of the bed.
My hands are tied to the bedpost, this is new for me, kinda excited in a way but makes me feel self self-conscious.

He can see all of me,
I feel his hands touch my stomach, I immediately start to squirm and protest. Its not that I didn't like his touch it more that I don't like what he is touching. The lights are on so I know he can see everything my fupa and stretch marks they disgusts me really but he loves it.
"You know you my beautiful bunny right ?"
Lance my husband of 3 years asks as he runs his hands over my hips.
I don't say anything , I knew he wouldn't like my answer.

Apparently he didn't appreciate my my silence either

         *Pinch*

"Ow don't pinch me" I yelp, I try to move away but he has me tied pretty damn good
His laughs and kisses the spot on my hip where he pinched me.
"Then next time answer my question
Yvette"
I pouted a little but then I feel his lips on my neck him knowing fully well its my weak spot.
The man's lips are like fire moving around my neck slowly interchanging between licking and sucking on my bare skin.
"You know your beautiful bunny why don't you believe me when I tell you?"
I don't speak I lift my head up a little and try to kiss him to avoid the questions.
I only get a peck in before he pulls back.
Suddenly the tie disappear I blink rapidly trying to adjust to the light and then i see his face
He looks pissed
" Fuck come Lance why can't we just have sex I'm not in the mood for a deep conversation that will leave me crying all night" I whine kicking my legs a bit Then I stop and and smirk knowing his weakness to.
I smile and wrap my legs around him try to pull him close to me but he doesn't budge.
I roll my eyes in annoyance.
" You don't think Your beautiful do you?"
I don't want to do this right now I don't want to think about those things, why is he making this difficult for me
"Ugh let's just not do this right now" my voice is grows dark, low and angry.
Im Not really angry at him, it really just anger towards myself because I can't handle this conversation.
Normally I can get up and leave but I'm kinda tied up at the moment.
"No I'm not gonna let you run away this time Yvette I need you to tell me what's gonna on with you."

I'm getting angrier, I just want to get away I don't want to cry in front of him.
"Why can't you just get it!! I don't want to talk about it!"
If I don't get away from here now I'm gonna fucking cry,  I don't like people to see me emotional undressed, its scary.
Im pulling on the rope that ties my hands together desperately trying to get free the rope bites at my skin as i pull harder I try to get away and run from the situation before-
Shit
I can't hold the tears back anymore
I'm crying in front of him like some emotional bitch that can't keep her feelings in check
I struggle some more trying to get free I'm vaguely aware of the fact that I'm still undressed my tits must be flopping around like mad

"DON'T FUCKING LOOK AT ME UNITE ME AND FUCK OFF!"

Wow I'm a real cunt why would anyone put up with me, I wouldn't.
My eyes are closed I can't bring myself to look at him, he should really fucking hate Me.

"Look at me bunny"
I don't open then because I just have to be difficult
" YVETTE LOOK AT ME NOW!"

My eyes shoot opened and my heart beats a mile a minute.
When he yells he means business.
I thank god he still has his boxers as he straddles me.
" Yvette you are beautiful I don't know why you can't just believe me when I say it? You think I just say it to hear myself talk?"
He bring his face close to mine he softly kisses the corners of my mouth making me automatically smile
"Im not beautiful look at me, I'm nothing but a fat saggy whale,  my hips are huge I can barely fit in to anything my stomach is just a mess and my face is shit its like I'm going through puberty again, worst off all I'm to dark my skin looks burnt I'm just disgusting"

My face is just flooding with tears I want to get out I just want to crawl Out of this body I don't want it
I hate it.

"Oh bunny you don't know how wrong you are. I don't see any of that"
He reaches up and unties me but he wraps his arms around me my back presses into his chest he squeezes me a little to tight, because if he doesn't he know I'll try to jet off into the bathroom and lock myself in.
"First off you are not a fat saggy whale Yvette. You and a bit of a stomach so what I like it, and yeah it has stretch marks on it but I don't even care about them bunny." Lance kisses my shoulder slowly and takes one hand -still holding tight with the other one, and rubs my thighs
"And ur thighs are just perfect to me you know I like a woman with some meat on her bone its more to love.
I love every thing you hate cuz your perfect to me."
He kissed me on my cheek my cheeks are wet from my ongoing tears.

"I want you to feel beautiful inside and out"
His hand snakes its way around my neck and pushes it back. His lips kisses the sides of my neck, I'm still crying its to late to stop it know even though his kisses do feel perfectly wonderful.
"Even if you don't feel beautiful, just know that I love you know matter what"
His other hand makes it way down my abdomen , and cups my sex
Its hot and wet his fingers tease my clit softly almost like he is tickling it.
I squeeze my thighs together trapping his hand down there.

"Mmm I know how to make you feel beautiful Bunny, I know how to make you moan in pleasure, Please don't cry anymore I want you to feel good"

Lance the stick a single finger inside me so painstakingly slow my crying turn  into soft moaning

"Lance, b-b-baby please d-don't tease me like that"
I whine and try to squirm out of his grip but he has a really strong hold on me.

   He fucking laughs and its damn sexy to.

"Why would I do that I love watching you beg and squirm"

He kisses the side of my jaw then licks down to my ear and whisper to me
 
"I'm gonna make you scream tonight Bunny, I'm gonna make you cum again and again until you can't anymore"