I don't know how I feel about the whole moving thing,my feelings are all bottled up inside.All the anger,the excitement and guilt. I don't want to feel this way but I do,angry because I have to move but I'm also excited to have a house to call my own not a crummy apartment or town house, but guilty because the person that I'm in a relationship with know I'm moving but why didn't I break it off yet and should I break it off some I have four more months but is it worth it all the pain I feel. But how will they feel when I move?
I can't break it off I really like this person and I shouldn't do that I have time, there alway conflict in my head a spinning tornados going and moving also, It making it hard to think straight. I wish I could explain better but I can't, I can't explain to anyone not to the person I like, not to my parents not to anyone. Well not yet.
I want to tell the person my feeling but I can't not yet it's hard to explain to someone even if you trust them, it's hard for me to share them to people I know. I want to feel good about the relationship and moving but I can't...moving makes everything harder and makes me stressed. The feeling I have I'm going to try to for get and hope it works but there some feeling I can't hide from anyone not even my partner.
