" Love Untitled " ~ The Road To Your Heart ~ BOOK FIVE

BOOK 5 > Ch. 50 ~WOMAN TO WOMAN~

' Don't be that girl. The girl who goes back continuously and thinks that every time will be different. I understand you miss him and it's easier to breathe with him around. But would it be easier to smile when he's not breaking up with you? Or whenever he chose to disregard your feelings when he feels like it? You don't deserve to be the back up. That person he drops and picks up whenever he wants to. Don't be that girl. That girl who thinks that each time he comes around, you were there hoping that he'll stay and won't leave again. And you end up looking like a fool... again. I get that you're happier when he's texting you, cuddling you. But aren't you happier when you aren't crying because he hasn't say a word to you all day? That he is being cold again and that hurts you? Please, don't be that girl.  You're smarter than that. Stronger than that. Don't be that kind of girl. '

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Beads of perspiration dribbled down her forehead, as she stared at the pregnancy test that she bought earlier at the local pharmacy store nearest to their condominium building. Two clear, visible, without a doubt, purple lines indicating positive result. Shit. Shit. She's so fvcked up. Psyche sagged on top of the toilet bowl, closing her eyes in desperation.

Two months. For two straight months, just after Richard Armani took their relationship to another level, the guy suddenly grew cold on her. She didn't understand that part. It confused her. He made love to her inside the hospital's shower room, was extra touchy, romantic and everything that she wanted him to be that day. Psyche actually thought that he had a change of heart on her. Maybe the guy realized the switch of feelings while she was in coma? Maybe he has finally concluded that he could try working out their marriage? Perhaps because she was a great mother to Benedict too? Whatever his reason may be, Psyche melted. He had her the whole day, she was waiting for him to arrive that evening. But he didn't. Her excitement from waiting from him died when after midnight, he didn't show up. But that didn't stop her from waiting in vain. She was out of the hospital after two days, just after she woke up from a long sleep and she remained hopeful for that one faithful day that she'll see him again. Richard Armani Castro is a very busy man. She simply thought he had a lot going on, that she was married and in love with a man who's ruling an empire. Each and everyday and every time that her cellphone beeps and rings, she was like an idiot running and jumping out from where she was carrying with her a heart full of anticipation. Unfortunately after, she'll end up broken hearted just because it wasn't him texting nor calling. Then after all those moments that she waited, it came close to a month and she had finally given up the thought that he'll ever see her again. And she wondered why. It was like a breakup, without the closure at all. There was even a time when she logged into the chat box and she can see that he was online. She attempted to send him a message and ended up not pushing for it because the guy can definitely see her on line, yet he didn't make a move on it. When one time it happened again, she forced a simple 'Hello' greeting, hoping to send him a silent signal that she was trying to reach out. But to embarrass her more, he didn't even open her message though she can still see that he's still online. Psyche was left hanging. Everything about how Richard Armani treated her were all hurting her so much, she wished he didn't offer her any hope that somehow he was already having feelings for her. Or it was just her? Maybe she assumed? Assumed too early of something that she didn't even have any proof? Could she even blame herself for loving him this much that she added color to his kindness? Kindness. That's just all about it. Responsibilities. That's just all what he was doing. And the heated sex that happened to them? Damn, he was just a man. It broke her. No. That was understatement. His treatment towards her devastated her. She needed to move on and accept it. She was his temporary romance, it was fleeting, she made an idiot out of herself.