My names Blurryface
I care And what you think
So I may have not been an angle child that everyone wishes I was. But I have a reason for that. When your bullied for life every single day you tend to get a little. Weird. As in get kinda upset for no reason or get really attached to your mom. Like your up her butthole looking for the answers to life. I never found those answers.
In kindergarten I use to get made fun of a lot they would always say. Kim and her bookbag sitting in a tree. K. I. S. S. I. N. G. And so foreth. A girl straight up wrote on my hands and pants like dude. Are you serious. They looked at a tape for what seem like hours.
I felt dumb half the time in kindergarten because my class was bilingual and I wasnt. I made friends that turned their back on me everyday. ( Weee just give me the award of the most loser now ). I actually thought that the teacher said what do you see in the sky in Spanish when the question was what do you want for Christmas. ( Do they have an award for most retarded).
I remember moving to Virginia. Not having really any friends and I'm not saying it for sympathy. I really had no friends. My step dad was in the military. We did have a big house, but I always felt like I was being watched in my playroom, but I'm just naturally paranoid .
So I was about 4 when my little brother was born. And I remembered when my mom and stepdad let me pick where he sat. Well his name is Patrick jr for starters. And i wanted to be able to see my mom in the car so i sat on the right side and he sat in the middle. Well i dont remeber much about him except his death. My mother said i didnt even cry at his funeral. Am I that messed in my mind. And the weird part is I don't remember crying at any funerals. One time I tried to cry and I couldn't I just wouldnt. My mind or body just wouldn't let me.
We moved back to New York. And money had been tight so we didn't have the best apartment. But it was something. The sad part was I still had no real friends. It was a real struggle. When it came to partner work I was the last standing. I either had to work with some really mean kids or really weird nerds. Or maybe even alone but I didn't mind that I liked stuff to go my way or no way.
So more or less my life took a turn. One messy one. My mom and step dad broke up. And here's why. So you know New Orleans well he had to go there for his job and my mom was like. Oh no hell nah. So I was to much back and forth so they shut down the realationship. It hit hard for me. Now that I'm realizing it. Do you ever think your parents are hiding something from you. We'll I domudnt think that I was too young to relize my mom was lieing to me. She said of Kim everything's gonna be okay. Well it wasn't.
