“This sucks!” I sighed in defeat, falling onto my bed with tears forming in my eyes. These last few weeks have been fucking terrible. My ex-girlfriend keeps making me feel like shit, talking about how I’m a horrible human being and how I should just kill myself. I don’t understand... I tried to be a good boyfriend but whatever. I try not to let it get to me, I try to stay positive, especially for my fans, but it’s so hard. I keep this sadness hidden by drinking, partying and hooking up with girls a lot. I don’t really like drinking away my problems or using an innocent girl for my needs to not feel alone like I usually do, but I need a distraction somehow.
Speaking of distractions, I felt a vibration coming from my pocket. I reached inside and pulled out my phone, seeing I got a text from Alex. When I opened it up, it was just some simple Emoji smiley face. Oh no... This means trouble.
Me: “What now?”
Alex: “Wanna go to a party?”
A party? More distractions for me.
Me: “Sure, where?”
Alex: “My house, Demi wanted to do something.”
Me: “Demi? You’re talking to her?”
Alex: “Yup(: So you’re definitely coming?”
Me: “As long as there is booze, yes. Haha :P Jk I’ll come.”
Alex: “Okay. God, I hope I can hook up with Demi...”
Me: “You have fun with that, scumbag (; Jk. I’ll see you at the party.”
To be honest, I really didn’t want to go to this party because every time I go to a party with Alex, he’s always with a girl and I just usually sit there with a few friends, drinking away all my shitty problems I have... Like always. But I guess I shouldn’t be a pussy and just go anyways. Maybe I’ll find a girl who won’t shatter my heart to pieces. Oh wait, that’s impossible.
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I stepped out of the shower and wrapped a towel around my waist as I made my way to the bathroom mirror. I studied myself for a few minutes, moving my face around and trying to find the right style for my hair, but everything was bland and I gave up.
“Whatever” I mumbled to myself as I got changed into my “party outfit”.
The outfit was simple. Black skinny jeans, Nikes, and a blue V-Neck. Girls thought it was hot, so I kept it that way ever since the first compliment. It makes me feel good about myself, sort of.
I decided after a while to gel my hair and shave just a little to make me look less homeless. I don’t know why I cared. I didn’t really think I was going to find a girl to hook up with. Maybe I’ll get a few compliments or something. Something to make me at least smile for the night.
I grabbed my phone, Jack Daniels and car keys and left the house to Alex’s party. During the car ride, I thought of Demi being there. I remember her and Alex having a thing some time ago but she and I never really talked often. When we did, we usually talked about simple things. She’s not her bubbly self around me like she is around Alex. I can see why though. But anyways, she’s still a sweet and caring person. I hope Alex just doesn’t use her like he does to most girls. She doesn’t deserve it.
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When I arrived to the party, I saw rows of cars parked everywhere. I guess I was a little late. Once I parked, I make my way inside and looked around and saw groups of people everywhere, but right away I saw Rian and Zack. Still no sign of Alex though, of course.
“He should be here right now.” I whispered to myself while still continuing to search for him.
After a few seconds, I sighed in defeat and just stood there, hoping Alex would just find me. I rubbed my temples and searched around, looking for a drink and then I realized I had my Jack Daniels in my car. Fuck Alex, I needed my alcohol. I made my way towards the crowds of people and bumped into one particular person. Demi.
“Oh god, I’m sorry. I didn’t see you there.” I said apologetically.
Once she turned around though, of course I got caught in her eyes. They were beautiful, I always thought that, as creepy as that is.
“It’s okay...” She said sweetly, until she recognized me. “Oh! Jack, Hey! I haven’t seen you in a while.” She came closer to me and wrapped her arms around me tightly for a few seconds before letting go and smiling back up to me.
I smiled brightly as I look down at her beautiful smile. I knew I shouldn’t have been staring or even thinking anything about how she was beautiful because I knew Alex would kill me for “trying to steal his girl” but I couldn’t help it. She was beautiful. Alex was a lucky dude. She looked so sweet and innocent and… and then Alex showed up.
“Hey man, I was looking for you everywhere.” I felt a tap on my shoulder and turned around quickly to see Alex standing there with a grin on his face.
“Oh hey, man. I love this party so far” I sort of fibbed.
“Thanks, dude. Is that Demi behind you?” I turned to the side so he could see her better and of course, her smile got bigger when she laid eyes on him and I frowned. He always had to be better and more handsome. I know, I was kind of jealous.
Right away, she ran into his arms and hugged him so tight. I honestly felt a little sad from that. I don’t know why but I just frowned and turned away, making my way towards my car to find the little thing that made all the pain go away. Alcohol.
