dance in the rain.
smile through the pain.
you name is on my tongue like skid
marks on a road. i call for you, knowing
that there will be no answer. like a star
without light, a bird without flight, you
crippled me. no forgetting you, you
made sure that I would always
remember you. if you came back, I
would be yours in an instant. if
you wanted me to. where did my
independence go? where is my free
spirit, my story without you? you are
fine, and I am not. I was strong, before
you. I was
free,
I was
strong,
I was
Alone.
When you came I was
Happy,
if just for a little while.
Was I a fool? For knowing that I would
crash and burn if I went to you, like a
moth to a flame. I was blinded by the
prospect of love, of not trying so hard.
I told myself that I could finally let my
walls down, the walls that took years to
make, that only got stronger with the
teasing, the tears, the trying. he didn't
care enough. he didn't know me like he
though he did. he didn't believe me that
I wasn't who he thought I was. he had
everything, and I always felt like
nothing.
