Kyle's **POV**
Well, new school year, and first impressions count so gotta look good. Well, i don't really try to look, but the only reason I do is for this girl named Miranda. She is so beautiful, but i have no chance because i have messed up before. I tried to talk to her a lot, but everytime i did, id stutter and mess up hat i was saying and she'd think I was really creepy. I would kick myself for the rest of the day when i messed up. I try not to be all weird around her, but she's so pretty I just can't help it. Her eyes, so beautiful brown, her hair, brown soft and warm, just everything about her is perfect. I have messed up so bad before I probably no chance on taking her out on a date. I hung out with her one time out of school and that was at the movies, and that's the only time. I've only talked to her a couple times like actually talking besides texting. I'm trying to take it slow, but it's really hard. I would spend day and night thinking about her. I would go to a mountain top and scream her name and make it echo throughout all of the moutians. But me, I'm butt ugly, like seriously. I have pimples on my face, arms, butt, and back. It makes me so angry i just want to rip it all off until there's no more pimples on me. Pimples are like little demos that appear when you work too hard and don't wash your face afterwards. Every time i say that two lettered word H - I to Miranda it makes my day, even if I forget everything t home, it's just her face is so beautiful it just makes me want to scream at the top of my lungs. I've been into Miranda for 3 years, and i only dated her for three weeks once because it was a dare. But Miranda likes this one kid in 6th instead of 7th named Tommy. Me and Tommy used to be friends until we grew up. We haven't been over each other's house for 5 years now. But I'm glad I don't see him anymore because i want to punch that little twerp in the face. I just want to sit on the couch and play Xbox360 with her. But Miranda isn't that lovey-dovey kind of person. She's one of those people that isn't into that kind of stuff. I love her so much i even write songs about her. Im just a nerd who plays the guitar, drums, piano, bass and accordion. Now isn't that lame, i play the accordion. I sit pretty far away from Miranda in most classes, but i sit right next to her in science class. I talk t her any chance i get. But when I see her face i just flip out. When she turns her head to look at me, her hair dos this perfect hair flip that just makes me think, " WOW ". She's so popular when i'm just a ghost hiding in the dark. Everybody knows her. She has over 1K followers on Instagram, when i have only 340 somethin'. (Oh yah by the way follow me, im marcuscimino_ ). Today i got to sit beside her at lunch and i messed up BAD. Like, really bad. I was sitting beside her and she asked me to open her bag of candy, so obviously i did. I ate one because they looked really good. She flipped and told me she would never talk to me again and I'm not her best friend anymore. I felt so retarded. I can't text her because my mom cancelled my phone plan. I had one chance, and i ruined it from eating a candy. Wow. I just blew it. I just want to scream my eyeballs out. I am so angry. I want to punch somebody in the face and just yell at the person. But she is so beautiful. I have to find way out of it. I just have to think. Really hard. She makes me feel like I'm gonna throw up. But not that way. She makes me feel special. I always love being around her because she's so nice to me, well sometimes. I wish she would like me, but I know that will never happen. We hang out sometimes, but I try to make those times last so I can remember. When I see other boys talking and hanging out with her I feel like just giving up, but then I remember losers give up, so I'll just try until my feelings change or something. She's so smarter than me. I fail the easiest class in the world, English. I have a fudging D when she has a B. I wish I could get better at school. Sometimes, when i get angry about something like a boy hanging out with her or something, I go play my drums and I literally smash them. I am like a master at music, so I write music. A lot of my songs are about anger and not living up to my potential, but I play so many instruments, like the guitar, drums, piano, bass, accordion, and I sing a little bit. I don't think she knows that though. But I don't think she'll care. I actually haven't messed up lately. She invited me to go to the movies with her Friday night. But wait, I have rehearsal for the talent show that night... SHIYAT... I don't know what I'm gonna do, this talent show is kind of a big thing, ya know? The winner gets $1000 and a years supply of pizza and we get to record our own song. I might leave early because I never hang out with her. She always goes skating, but I can't cuz of my injury. I broke my face a couple years back, and I had the worst kind of concussion, so I'm still recovering. But that's probably why I'm so ugly. I can't wait, she told me it was just gonna be her and her friend, Alaina, I got really excited. Just imagine it, me Miranda, movie, sitting by each other, it's just like heaven. Dayum I must be lucky, but I can only hope for now...
