How did we end up here?

In the end the truth will come out.

I stared at my camera for what felt like hours. I needed to sit down and talk to someone, but I had no one. I'd shut everyone out, no one wanted to hang out with me anymore and frankly I don't blame them. So I sat, and thought that my next best option would be to express my feelings to the camera. Whether any of these next few minutes made it onto the Internet, it didn't matter, I knew this is something I had to do...
Hello everyone. I'm not really sure if I'll post this or not but if you're watching this right now then I guess I did. As you may have realised, yes I have been.. In a relationship with a girl named Meredith Mickelson. I would like to first of all apologise for being an absolute asshole these past few months. I would also like to apologise to all my friends that stuck by me when I didn't deserve it. And most of all I'd like to apologise to Andrea Russett for stuffing her around and being the worst person to ever walk into her life. I know I should probably talk about tour first because I do owe you an explanation. I don't really have the right words to say but yes I made some poor choices that I'm not very proud of. Sometimes pressure really does get to you and you crack and well I guess that's what happened to me. The photo that I posted of me and Andrea was one of the dumbest things I've done, I brought up old feelings that was entirely unnecessary and I really broke Andreas heart all over again. As you know when we went to Australia everything was really good between us and I stuffed everything up. What happened was that she expressed her feelings to me and even though I felt the exact same way I blew her off because I wasn't ready and I was too immature to face up to everything even though having her in my life is all I've ever wanted since I met her. Now for Meredith. No I was never in love with her, and I never will be. She was kind of a rebound and I used her to re create all the memories that Andrea and I shared. She didn't make me that happy but sometimes she did, and she only wanted me for money which made everything so much worse. At the end of the day I'd just like to say, I'm so incredibly sorry Andrea, you didn't need this in your life, I've made some bad choices and one day I believe that we will find our way back to each other but for now I'll wait around for you and fix all the problems I've caused... thank you everyone for listening, I hope you can all forgive me, I love you all so incredibly much.

I stopped recording and turned the camera off. I looked around and realised this is something I definitely had to post. I owed an explanation to my viewers, my friends and of course Andrea. However this isn't how the story starts for me. Now it's time to go back and watch how I ended up here, right now talking to my camera.