Sad Beautiful Tragic

Prologue

I already admired you since 6 years had passed...

I didn't expect someone like you become my crush

You've been so nice to me and you're intelligent and smart...

We we're the same transferred student to that certain school i cannot forgot.

What is the most shock revealing? I become an otaku, because you love those things which i learn to love it too...

How can i reach my feelings for you? If you just denying some love team jokes of my friends between you and me..

Is it too late for me now?

I remember when i texted you, i want to borrow some anime CD's to you..

because that's the only way i want to closed with you. But then you replied, it says;

"Of course you can borrowed it"

Then i replied it back says; "Okay then, i will go to your housed to get the anime CD"

You replied; "No, i'm the one will go to your house, you just wait until i get there"

I got the feeling the butterfly in my stomach and also felt tinkling sensation inside my heart ...

What will i am gonna do then before he arrives to my house?

because of the excitement, i groomed myself in order to get attractive to him as best as i can

Then after that, i waited for you outside. 2 minutes later, you came with the loving smile in your face which makes me love you even harder...

It's like a fairy tale, that symbolizes i am the princess who is waiting to her prince to fetch her up.... but my fantasies stops when you talk to me and says;

"Hey! this is your anime CD i got for you, sorry that's the only anime CD I'd found in my room, some are i already lost it, i can't find it" You don't have to be apologized because no matter what i still love you! if only i can tell my feelings for him right now :(

"Are you kidding? this is amazing! thanks for brought it to me in here" i look at the cover of the anime CD, which is i really, really, like it

"Ahmmm are you sure you like that anime CD?"-him

"Yep! i really like it! super duper like it :)"

When i glimpsed to him while looking at the anime CD, I notice that he stared at me too long, and i can see those eyes telling me like i'm the prettiest girl he had ever seen... owww maybe it's just my imagination... ohhh well

"Ohhhh well then, that's great...hey, by the way your hair is really beautiful! i like it"

process.process.process. WHHHAAAATTT DID HE SAY???

before i can look up to him, he already gone.. that was fast enough. When i entered my room, i was still shock and i cannot imagined what's gotten to his mind to say that to me. When i still got curious about it, i texted him to clarify it.

"Are you serious? You've got to be kidding right?"

and then he replied; "No, i'm serious... your hair is beautiful:)"

I don't understand why he treated me like this... Is it because he had also the same feelings for me too? and i don't  understand why of all boys in the classroom, i only got attracted to him?  it's because you got the anime attitude guy and aura?

or is it you already stole my heart?

That day is precious to me like i want to treasured it to my heart and mind... until now, i will not forget it.

If you are reading this....do i have still a chance to you when someday i can properly confessed just like the way the characters of anime what we've seen on manga or in kissanime...

10 years? 5 years? who knows when will be that day.. or maybe it will never be happen, maybe i will just buried into my heart and thinking my feelings that will never be exist to you....

Sayonara....

Watashi wa, anata o aishiteimasu