i'll stand by you (R5 fan fiction)

chapter 10

AFTER SCHOOL

i went to locker and put my books in my back pack. i slung my back pack over my shoulder i started walking down the hall people were looking at me what did i do? i heard some people whispering my name...

i bet Isabella has something to do with this, i tried to ignore everyone but it was hard i quick got in my car and drove home

a while after driving i got home i went inside and got my laptop out. i logged into facebook and i saw i got almost 30 mentions on photo's i clicked on one of them

"your worthless i dont know why Ryland ever started dating you!"

a tear slid down my cheek i clicked on another one

"why are you even here no one likes you not even Ryland he just feels bad for you"

more and more tears slid down my cheeks

"heard about u doing suicide don't worry just try try again"

i was sobbing know, that's why people were staring at me! i got off my bed and went to the bathroom i opened the cabinet and grabbed my razor i carefully removed one of the blades and held it to my wrist, i had a long deep cut that made me cry even more i just kept cutting my right wrist till blood covered my whole arm. i went to the next arm and did the same i turned on the shower and put my arms under the warm water, it felt like fire. after i was done i went back to my cabinet and grabbed the sleeping pills.

i opened it but before i took them i grabbed a piece of paper

"dear lynch's, ratliff and Natalia

i am so sorry that i did this, but i had to no one would have missed me if i was gone i shouldn't be living right know I'm worthless! i have no parents i am fat, ugly, stupid

Ry Ry... for once i felt loved by someone but i don't deserve you i sorry if i do die i want you to find someone better then me someone who has parents someone that is pretty someone that is right for you. you can do way better then me

i love you guys

Sophia Robinson"

I folded the note put it in an envelope, i went to my closet and picked out the nicest outfit. I went back to the bathroom and grabbed 6 pills and it said to only take 2 every 6 hours.

I took a deep breath but before i put them in my mouth someone knocked on the door i panicked because i had cuts all over my arms and i was wears a sleeveless dress. I looked around how do i get outa here!?!?!? I heard the knocking continue i quick went to my closet and hid inside it, the knocking turned into pounding it was silent but then i heard the door being knocked down

"SOPHIA!?!? SOPHIA ARE YOU HERE? "I am guessing Ryland said

I stayed silent until i heard my door open. Why didn't i lock it?

"Sophie?"

I was sitting on the floor of the closet hiding behind some box's. The door to the closet flew open

"Oh my god Sophia you scared the shit outa me, come on out"

"N-no"

"Come out or im coming in "

I didnt answer but then i saw him sit next to me

"Whats wrong why are you hiding?"

I got out of the closet quickly and ran out of my room i went to the backyard and climbed the tree i had

"Sophia where are y-you"

I started crying silently, i saw him walk out side and look around I pulled my nee's to my chest and buried my head in between them